ROARR. Leave me alone!

Yes, please leave me alone you evil stomach ache. Urhhh, I had been suffering stomach ache for twice in 3 days time. What the heck? And its not the normal pain, its bloooody EXTREME. I'm currently lying deadly on the chair and typing with one hand, yes no joke. Salute me?

Damnn, I hope I won't puke again this time. I puked 2 days ago and gross it was disgusting. =(

Worst of all, I'm having a cold flu now while tomorrow is the big day for countdown. !@#@%$#%&^ WHY?! I don't want to countdown with a runny nose!

For the past two years, I spend my last minute of the year and the first minute of the next year at Bukit Bintang. So this year, I'm finally switching to The Curve =) The plan was forever changing and finally, we settled with almost all the LYLAS coming. I hope things will turn out right tomorrow.

2008 is ending soon.

Lol, that's freaking fast can? I remember I was trying to suit myself into form4 life and subjects and now, crap I'm entering form 5. Don't ask me how was this year and the sweet 16 stuff. To me, every year feels the same. Lol, maybe my life is just boring or something.

. . . .

Okay, mood spoilt. Why are things changing so frequently?

Dang. No mood left to blog, bye.

Stop the naggings.

I know what am I doing.

So just leave me alone and let me be, okay?

Life goes wrong.

I wonder what happened to me these days.

I had been doing strange things that I've never done before. I adopted a new, but terrible lifestyle. I'm ruinning myself and all the effort that had been put in since years ago.

I feel depressed and miserable for behaving in such a way, but I couldn't change a thing. I failed again and again to persuade myself to get back to the track.

Dang. What the hell is wrong?

When the phone gets noisy.

After 20 long unanswered calls..

Damn, this is really getting irritating.

"Hey, stop calling please would you? Sorry but its annoying."
"But I thought you did not reload, sorry for disturbing. That day I didn't get your reply so just call you la blablabla..."

What the heck. What is out-of-credit gotta do with not answering calls?

"Nah, I just didn't want to waste my time or credit. Sorry bout that, just take me as anti social or whatever. Bye."

And whatever craps that followed were ignored...

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This is what happens when someone tests my patience with bloody hell loads of calls at all time. 12am, 10am, 12pm, 10pm... Dang it, why don't people understand when their calls are unanswered all the time? Isn't it obvious enough?

Say I'm harsh or comment whatever you wish to, but this is just me. I'm always patient, but very impatient in certain special cases, such as this. Get on my nerve, you'll get it. Back off!

I had been surviving with balloons, balloons and balloons for the last weekends. Ahah, it was pretty boring at first but after getting used to it, it turned out to be fine. But too bad I didn't get to celebrate my sis' 14th birthday due to this.



Still, I did something! I made a birthday cake for her the day before I left the house. It took me almost one whole day but I think its definitely worth it. She and her friends and my family plus my relatives all loved the cake (Well, except the Oreo cookies that got soften up after being exposed too long, lol.)

My sister and her friends
(Plus my sayang sayang dog! xD)

Happy Belated Birthday =)

I wonder if my smile changed or what? =.=

Mourning for the innocent lives.

It had been raining since early in the morning.

Perhaps the sky is crying for the innocent creatures that are being killed or to be killed today. Well, what festival is today? Sigh, I know I shouldn't say this, but I really feel sorry for the lives. Should I make it clear first, that I am NOT criticizing or trying to make an issue here. Its just, sympathy.

Yesterday when I was on the way to Mid Valley, there were these two cows, chewing grass peacefully beside the road. I wonder if they know what's waiting for them in 24 hours time? Do they realise their destiny? I rather they don't. Because if they do, that will be the biggest torture in the world, knowing their fate but couldn't help nor do anything to save themselves.

Sometimes I wish I could help them, you know, some crazy ideas like setting them free from the rope when nobody's around or something, LOL. Ahaha, just some imaginations lah okay, not that I'm gonna do it. xD Its impossible~

So, what brought me to Mid Valley was this...

The Picabot!

Remember I once blogged about the auto floor cleaning robot I was promoting during HomeDec 2008 in KLCC?

Because mum decided to get one for my uncle's family for moving into their new home, and so we went there to visit its booth in Mid Valley Exhibition Centre. Surprisingly, the uncle there (my ex boss, maybe? HA.) told me that he actually read my blog! What?! AHAH, nevermind, since I'm doing no harm but helping him to promote. xD

Mid Valley was, beyond-words CROWDED. Oh my, people there were shopping in a way as if all the stuff don't cost money at all. Every shop with a poster "SALES" in it, you will see a long queue in front of the fitting rooms, or a huge crowd of people hunting for shoes.

I was sort of, trying to get myself a new pair of shoes too. After walking around the shops, my sister and I had got a few bags on hand. But DANG, those were all HERS. Argh, maybe I'm simply too choosy or something. She ended up with 4 bags while me? Nothing. Booo =_=


Christmas is around the corner. That's the Christmas decoration in Mid Valley for this year. Pretty, but not as pretty as the others I would say. Room for improvement? Maybe =x

But I did enjoy the Christmas atmosphere. I like it, though I'm not one who celebrates Christmas.

Hee =D

Holiday's a torture?

Now everyone, prepare yourself for the long, boring post following up!

Hmm, yes, maybe. No, not maybe. Its a definitely. Err, I'm referring to the title-lah! =.=

I had never thought this way before, but my bored-to-death lifestyle recently really changed what holidays mean for me. It used to be one of the most enjoyable period for me. Well, free of school, stupid-daily-six-twenty-alarm, uniform, responsibilities, assemblies, lectures, homework blablabla. Who wouldn't enjoy life like this?

But now, let me think again. Maybe that statement is only applicable to those whom their life is forever full of activities. What else is in my life other than those things that I'm so used to during the non-holiday times? Nothing, I would say. You don't have to tell me how pathetic I am for having such a dull life as a teenager, I know more than you do. But what can I do?

So, I'm kind of... glad? To have the time passing so fast. Its already December, you see. No no, don't call me a psycho. Put yourself in my place and you will understand VERY well, you will see how hard I have to struggle in order to get through the over-the-limit bore.

Hah, sounds too serious? Well, I'm forcing myself not to get out of my bed earlier than 11am everyday even though I'm already awake since 9am. What a joke? How foolish can I be? But its true. Because I'll be filled with nothing but empty feeling, and annoyance sometimes, once I get up and think, "Crap, what the hell am I going to do today?" Especially when it is only 9am in the morning. So I chose to glue myself to the bed for another 2 hours, just to kill time.

Sighhhhhhhhhh.

Ok ok, I know I shouldn't complaint so much about holidays because I will definitely be very desperate for holidays when school's back. And, its form 5! RAWRRRR. Bless me, hah!

Twilight is indeed, a really interesting story. I couldn't help myself from being overly absorbed into the series that I'm actually reading it almost 24/ 7. HOHOHO, thanks to the movie I guess. And I have to agree with everyone who commented that the books edition is much more better than the movie's. More detailed perhaps.

I'm starting the forth book now, woo hooo!!

Ciao, sorry if the long post bored you out, HEHEHE. You always have an option to ignore, you know.
XD

There goes another damn day.

Another day of precious holiday had passed meaningless-ly.

Told you I'm lifeless without internet.

Today's update? Nahh, nothing except for rotting, eating and cursing the internet. My sis came home today and since we were all bored to death, guess what we did?

CAM WHORE!

People always say we look very much alike.
Do we??

See the 'sleeping buddha' at the back? That's my younger sis!

Then, I went over to her condo planning to swim at first. But toooo bad the weather wasn't at our side that it rained after we all changed into our swimming suit and went down to the pool. So I-don't-know-what-to-say right?

So we didn't get to swim, and end up being stuck in the condo. Grrrrr, luckily there's a computer WITH INTERNET here, or else I might naik gila once again, lol.

I saw the Twilight's trailer just now and oh damn, I'm so addicted to it. Wooo, happy to say I'm watching the movie tomorrow with Ping, Cecilia and Hong Hsuan! Weee, weird combination? Nahh where got? XD Ok je~ Hahahaaaa, I'm soooo looking forward to it. At least I know I won't be rotting tomorrow!

Twilight Twilight, here I come!

HEHEHEHE.

Ohhh ya, I passed my interview that day. Yipeeee~ I'm waiting! ^^

It gives such a big impact when it strikes again. It is unbearable. I wish I could do something to save it, but sorry to say I failed.
Something has to be done instead of letting myself to fall into the deep grave of miserableness and depression. I know I should, I will and I MUST. I HAVE TO!

Its disappointing to know that
someone you treat in a special way doesn't
treat you back the same way.

So... heart-breaking?

DAMN YOU STR_AMYX!!

I had been living without internet for approximately 4 days.

Damn damn damn, life is so hard without internet. Yeah yeah, call me online freak or whatever I don't care.

Str_amyx? Well, you know what is in that blank space. It simply sucks! It had been down since Friday night and till now its still out of service. Oh ya, I'm currently at some coffee shop near my house just to online. Funny kan?

Ok, so my mum called the Str_amyx service centre and all we get was they were having some maintainance and certain areas in Klang Valley, Sabah and Sarawak will be affected. So, fine. Maintainance. BUT WHY THE HELL IS IT TAKING SO LONG?! 4 days, oh wtf.

You know how boring holiday is without being able to online? Arghhh...

I know you might think I'm over-reacting but seriously, internet-less can make me go mad, especially when you wake up in the morning, turning on the computer and hoping the internet is working but end up so disappointing.

Argh. So people, I won't be active until I-don't-know-when. HOW SAD. Anything urgent please SMS or call me. Or, if you have something that's not urgent, like movie outings or something (xD) I welcome you to contact me too. Who knows I might be thanking you in tears for saving me from the killing bore?

My sampling job is ending in one week time. People there, or can I say my workmates? You guys rock, hahah! To be honest I think I'm gonna miss this job, like seriously. Well, for a reason of course =x

Signing off.
Holiday ROTS ME! =(
Lazy to reply tags, sorry people!

CC for Cute Cookies!

Isn't it cute???

Yes yes, this is the main character of my blog today! If you are wondering, well, its a piece of cookies. Started making it after I got back from interview today. Mum asked me why must you make it today?! Urhh, simply because I want to! HEHEHE.

And there goes my cute little babies! Weee, I'm quite happy with how they turned out. Nice to see, nice to eat, hahaha. Some of their eyes and ears are out of place, but nevermind, put it into your mouth and BOOP~ Say bye! xD


Made plenty of them, anyone wants one? xD


So, how did my interview go? Well, it wasn't too bad I THINK. But goshh, it took such a longggg time and I was really surprised to see the waiting room to be so crowded when I first reached there. Longest interview ever? Yeah, most probably.


I do not know how my result will be. All I can say is Good Luck! =)

My hands got itchyyy!

After sitting in the office keying in some boringgg datas which the handwritings were all scribbled up, I'm really desperate to do something I like, something I can enjoy, something satisfying.

Drooooooool. Too bad, its not made by me :(

Thanks to Cecilia who PROUDLY announced her successful on baking an Oreo cheeesecake *Brrrp* you made my hand gatal! I don't care, I'm gonna come out with something either today or tomorrow! xD What should I make? Cookies? Brownies? Cupcakes? Muffins? Tarts? Cakes? Owhhh, so tempting T_T

Let's move on back to my yesterday. I went to a place, an office to be exact, to work as a part time data entry-er. Well, I went there like around 8.30am, but only started my job at 10+am? Crap, wasted my sleeping time :(

I couldn't really type fast yesterday because.. First, wth the hand-written forms were sooo bloody TERRIBLE. People, why can't you write properly? Reading it takes longer time than typing it, argh. Then, I don't know what's wrong with the keyboard there but most of the buttons got stuck soo easily. Instead of typing, I think I had been punching on the keyboard most of the time -.- ...

So anyway, today is my resting day. Yay! I hope I'll be able to come out with something that I like.

xDD

Fine, what's so big deal?!

The feeling sucks when people don't appreciate what you've done for them at all.

You know, I was just trying to help you, since you were asking for it. Is this what I get as return when I helped you? Must you react such a way as if I stepped on your tail?

Well if you don't want, simply say no thanks and that's it. I did not force you to take it, did I? Obviously no. You don't want it? Fine, there are plenty more who ask for it, not just you. You don't have to be so frustrated as if I'm nagging you about it. I did not and I will not!

Learn to appreciate, yes you really should.

Work work~

OH SO LOVELY.

Now I started to like the sun, the big bright warm shiny hot sun.

Don't say I'm phycho or crazy or what-so-ever, because I'm pretty sure that you will think the same if you had been standing together with the 2.8°C chiller for 10 hours per day for 2 days. Yeshh, that's what I had been doing for the past 2 days.

Of course I'm not doing it simply for fun, anyone who thinks its fun is most probably from Sahara dessert I guess? This is my job, the work I found during this holiday. Sampling promoter! I'm promoting a new product from F&N *drumrollssss* aLiVE Yogurt! LOL. I'm lame I know, hahaha.

The New Product! Taste really good =P
*PROMOTE PROMOTE* xD

Well it isn't a too-bad job, but seriously, maybe better if I get to stand further away from the chiller? T.T Got alot of experience though, now I've seen how thick-skin people can be, and also the real 'behind-the-scene-in-the-storage' condition, LOL. Will be doing this job for another 2 weekends, so urhmmm.. Maybe I should take it as an opportunity to gain my resistance to COLD? T_T

Anyone interested to try? XD

God bless me.
>_<

Offended.

Yes I AM OFFENDED.

By you and you.

Happy now?

Damn, what's wrong with you people now? Can't you just try to understand how people feel before you comment on anything? Different people have different thoughts about certain things, its not only about YOU yourself!

Stop being sarcastic and judge everything from your point of view. You are not the centre of the world.


Yes, its you.

Heels kill !

HEELS REALLY KILL!

I wore it to work yesterday and my feet got really numb at the end of the day. Oh my, what a bad first-time. Worst of all, today my feet are still aching like nobody's business. I swear I will NEVER wear them again if its not neccessary. NOOO!

So anyway, yes I went for work in KL Convention Centre. This is my second working experience at the same place, hoho. But this time, I worked as a promoter. My job was to promote something that I did not know about in the past but only introduced to me on Friday, a PicaBot! Its actually an auto sweeping, vacuuming and sterilising robot. Sounds cool huh? xD

I might get one in the future, if I'm rich enough, because its selling at RM1288! For a robot like this its QUITE reasonable perhaps, but for a kid like me, nehhhh xD!

Overall it wasn't a bad working experience as I learnt quite some new stuff.

BUT IT WOULD BE BETTER WITHOUT THE KILLING HEELSS!!!!

The KILLER.

Work & Drive

I skipped school again yesterday, yayyy!

But I went to school today, YAY!

Another but, I'm skipping again tomorrow! MUAHAHAH.

LYLAS, we go and we skip school as a gang. United and strong are we? xD Hohoho.

Let me update a little bout what I did last few days. =)

Firstly, I spent most of my time searching for job in Damansara area. Too bad the pays offered are seriously low! Can you imagine getting paid RM3.50 an hour for working in a place like The Curve? No way! But still there are people working there, sweat. I wonder how they survive with that rate of pay?

In short, I might will most probably end up like last year, spent the whole one and a half months of holiday rotting. Nooooo! I need work to kill time as well as to earn some pocket money for the upcoming planss! =( I'm broke!

Dad asked me to take undang during this holiday so I can get my lisence earlier next year. Sounds like a good idea, but what if I'm working? -_- Sigh.

Anyway, I had my first driving experience on Saturday. Thanks to my 'part time instructor' John, haha! It wasn't too bad I would say, but of course its an auto car. How wrong could it go? Lol~ I did a few 3-points-turn and parking practise. People, if one day you see a car taking ages to park, that's me! HAHAHAH. I suck in it -.-

Yes your eyes are okay, its me DRIVING! XD

My part time instructor!

Dude, I won't be surprised if its me you are pointing at.

Not a bad thing though,

at least we feel the same about each other.

Fill in the blank. (LAMEEEE!!)

Jia Yang said I have to complete the tag, so here it goes. xD

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your Journal).I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.___12___,-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seed
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My fatherGrey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue =P
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - ManO.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scared
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendshipBeer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourselfChina - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Dear Jia Yang,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our horoscope doesn't match . I think I realized it that night with George Bush and his wife and I saw u sit on the crazy monk. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that there is no solution to this. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep my virginity as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about our friendshipBeer - Senility.

Good luck to your short- term leave from jail, Chai Yeen


OH well, isn't it lame?
Lmaoooo. XD

Tagged by KSE & Jia Yang

Tagged by KSE & Jia Yang


1) Do you think you're hot ?
No? I'm honest =P

2) Upload your favourite picture of you!














3) Why do you like that picture ?
I can hardly snap a 'proper' photo with my dog -_- So yeah, this is precious xD

4) When was the last time you ate pizza ?
Yesterday xD

5) The last song you listen to ?
David Archuleta - Crush

6) What are you doing right now besides this?
Drinking water? =x

7) What name would you prefer besides yours ?
Urmmm? Don't know -.-

People to tag :
1. Amanda
2. Cecilia
3. Andrianna
4. Esther
5. Carissa


8) Who is number one ?
Dumdumnique, SUSHI freak~

9) Number three is having a relationship with ?
Hmmm, SUSPECTED to be.. some 'brother'? LOOOOL.

10) Say something about number five ?
Writer-to-be, walking dictionary, sound vibrator. KEKEKE.

11) How about number four ?
Super perasan school captain, hyper gilaaa~

12) Who is number two ?
Cecilia Cho Wei Ling the pink girl, pineapple-mango-and-salty-guava freak. XD


Finally done my tag -..- yay~

Proper post after so long?

I GOT ALOT TO BLOG ABOUT TODAY SO PLEASE BE PATIENTTTT AND READDD!! xDD

School today bored me to hellllllllllllllll. Only 18 of them came and, well, obviously my gang would never be one of them. I spent all my time sleeping on the table and opps, that made me forgot to wish the teacher. AHAHA, that was really embarassing when the whole class was standing, waiting for me to say thank you to the teacher while I was lying on the table. Lmaoooooo la xD

Lesson learnt today?
Do not go to school when your friends are all skipping.


Anyway, got to know my position in class today. My pure science subjects all dropped like shit but I'm lucky enough to still get all 1A's and a 2A for chemistry. Happy to know that I'm able to maintain my position in class this term. =) I'm really thankful.

Guaa Guaa Guaaa xD~ Class party this year was fine, not that boring afterall. Basically we were lepak-ing around and CAMWHOREEE. Photos and photos and photos, I couldn't remember how many silly pictures we took, LOL. Haven't get the pictures yet, but will be uploaded soon! I made a cake for the class, and yayyy, glad to know it was well received =)

Here are some pictures!

The cake I made.
Full of chocolate, yummm =P

SPOT MEEEEE!

Favourite pic =) The LYLAS~

After the class party, we went all the way to TBM to celebrate KSE's birthday. Unfortunately it rained when we were halfway walking to the restaurant, urhhhh. Eh tortoise, touched or not? Walked in rain worr! Must say you are, I don't care if tortoise is cold- blooded, LOL. Once again, belated happy birthday! Enjoyed the cream on your face? xD Went lepak at some mamak stall and got 'teased' for wasting a glass of Limau Ais which tasted like Gula Ais to me, LOOOL. ITS TOO SWEET OK!!

The birthday boyyyy.
Acting cool? xD

I'm skipping school tomorrow! Hoooray =D Gonna hunt for jobs, kekekeke.

Good luck to me!

ONE MORE SHOT!

Woooooooooooooooooo, I had left my blog alone for soo long and finally I'm back! Yeayy!

ONE MORE SHOT AND WE ARE OFFICIALLY DONE! Yes that's for the final exam, HEHE. One more, just one more miserable objective paper and I'm free! I can't wait XD!

Exam reports? Let me summarise it. ALL of the science subjects had been screwed like shit, and I mean it. But who cares? I'm satisfied with my Add Maths. =) I LOVE ADD MATHS!

For these 2 days I really struggled like shit to study. Slept at 11+pm and woke up 3.30am to study for 2 days straight. That's soo OMGOSH! I don't think I've ever done that before. So yeah, terrible headache I'm having now. I need REST! (But I don't think studying this way worked cause I still screwed my papers. Damn, I feel like an idiot for torturing myself for nothing! )

Plans are popping out for activities after exam already, HEHE. Too bad I can't join tomorrow's trip T_T I want to watch High School Musical sooo badly!! >_<

BAD EFFECT OF EXAM.

I am here for a random post, ha ha.

Just to relax my full-of-add-maths-formulae-and-digits brain.


Bad Effects of EXAMS.

There are different reactions from different people when it comes to exam.

First, the exhausted.


Second, the exploded aka naik gila.


But either way might as well end up with this. =)See how bad exams are? Exam stress is said and proven to be one of the cause of the increasing commit suicide rate. So let's protest. BANNNNNNN THEEE EXAMMMMM!!! xDD



Lool, I know how lame I am.
Well, I guess I'm currently in the first stage, slowly transforming into the second stage, and might as well proceed to the LAST option. XD

Okok, back to add maths!

Hopeless!

I am officially certifying the death of my final exam.

Oh well, I had the worst Maths paper ever today.

Sigh, after ruinning my chemistry paper which I answered nothing but pages of cow dunk, I thought Maths paper will somehow make me feel better since Math's always the 'comforting' subject.

But no, I was totally wrong. The maths paper made me feel worse. Especially when I realised all the stupid, silly mistakes I did. And hell, WHY DID THE TIME PASS SO FAST? I've never been so rush for a Maths paper, NEVER.


Basically none of the papers I had could satisfy me, so hmm, predict my result?
Nahh, you don't have to. I already know how it will be.

Nevermind, I expected that.

And I know I deserve it, since I did not work hard.

Just let me be bad for once? =)


Tomorrow's add maths.
Ah ah, I'm soo lazy to open the book!

Procrastination Round 2.

Did I say I'll be studying today?

I guess I did.



Did I keep my words then?

. . .
You get my answer, lol!

I see myself in her!

Nahh, get used to it people. I'm no longer the goody study girl anymore. Sometimes when I think about the changes in my behaviour and attitude lately, I have to admit that I am worried where these changes will lead me to.

I remember my mum once said, who knows maybe you can be SOMEONE in the future but it all changed because of a different step you took.

I know life isn't all about fun and there are times to be serious.

But..

Perhaps I'm not ready for the moment yet?


Eh eh eh, why so serious? LOL.

Relaxxxx, you are still too young to worry about LIFE! xD

p/s: Chemistry paper's coming soon.


Imagine my paper like this, HAHA. Salute the kid!

7 more days!

Hooray! Another 2 days down and 7 more left to go, WEE!

You know what, I'm seriously lantak-ing the final more than anything now. Look at me, its 9.10am now and I'm here, online blogging. I SKIPPED SCHOOL, I SKIPPED EXAM! Muahahahah~

Nah just kidding.

Today's the PMR holiday for all the form 4's. And TOMORROW TOO! Time to rest! Just a small break wouldn't harm right? Yeah, a 'small' break I mean. I still have to study during this holiday, but its just the matter of time yeah? Who knows when will I start revising? Sunday maybe? HAHAHA.

Updates for my final? Isn't it boring? Alright, mention a little will do.

Physics: DEAD. 12marks already gone and the minor mistakes are not even counted yet.
Sivik: Ok ok la, at least that's what I feel. An A for it, I hope? LOL.
BM: Essays, essays. Crap and crap, no comment!
Chinese: Essays too! My destiny is in teacher's hand. HAHA.
Moral: MENTAL TORTUREE!!! Brain juice was all squeezed out but still did pretty bad for the essay part -_-

As you can see, I didn't do well for most of the papers (or all?) I've taken, but surprisingly I'm not feeling sad nor depressed for it. It just didn't seem to influence me at all! Well, maybe just a little worry. A LITTLE. If it was last time, I'll probably be worried like crazy and keep praying, praying and praying.

Is it a good or bad thing that I'm taking it this way?

Went to Selayang Mall for Sushi with the LYLAS after school to celebrate our so called first-session-of-exam-ended. We had ALOT of fun teasing and cursing some people there, including the manager and the FAT BOYS behind us, LOL. TEMPURA WAR!!! xD

At night, I bugged my sis to bring me to Taman Connaught's night market, a huge and famous one. We actually took 2hours plus to walk around from the starting to the ending, lol. Bought some stuff but still couldn't find what I was hunting for, sigh. Went back to her boyfriend's condo and did some stupid stuff. She tried out her fake eyelashes on ME! Can you imagine?! I almost fainted when I looked at myself in the mirror, what a nightmare!

Oh btw, I'm in the condo now. HEHEHE. PEOPLE *point*, jealous not? =P

First day down!

Instead of screaming and yelling over my sort-of-screwed-up biology and english paper, I'm gonna say, OOH LA LA FIRST DAY DOWN, 9 MORE TO GO! Weee xD Too bad its not ending in 9 days time, but in 2 weeks plus time. Why why why? Thereee... PMR holidays, weekends and Deepavali holidays! Hmm, I'm quite ok with it actually since the draginggggggs give me enough longer, but still not enough time to study for it. -_-

Tomorrow's BM and the huh-what-the-heck-is-this-about physics paper! Physics physics, I hate you! I'm superbly bad in chap 5, or I should say, the all 5 chapters? Nahh don't care, fail then fail la. I expected myself to drownnnnn to the bottom in this exam. LOL.

I'M NOT LAZY OKAY! I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY.
Excuses xD~

Fed up, give up.

I opened my 'Success Biology' for tried hard to focus on it. I eventually got fed up after 30 minutes as nothing seemed to go into my mind.

I told myself, I will NOT do something related with Biology in the future. Who bothers about how the cells divide, what happens to the food in my stomach and the COWs' stomach?! What's that got to do with me? Nothing right?!

Since I've made the decision, I am.. not gonna study for this exam anymore? Hmm, perhaps.

I'm serious, no jokes!

UH OWWW.

Let me start with this before anythingelse.

AHHHHHHHH CRAP ONLY 2 MORE DAYS LEFT TO THE FIRST BLOODY PAPER AND I'M STILL HERE NICELY BLOGGING WITH NONE OF MY REVISION DONE. GOH CHAI YEEN YOU ARE SO FREAKING PRO LAHHHHH!! DONT CRY WHEN YOU GET BACK YOUR RESULTS, YOU DESERVE IT!! STUPID LAZY BUMP!! T____T

Yes I'm so scared but still procrastinating my revision. Someone whack me can? No, don't start with the 'you no need to study also can score lahh...' thingy, because this time its no longer the same anymore. After the mid term exam, I'd been super lazy. Instead of paying attention in class, I was actually dreaming, sleeping, talking and conteng-ing. So, since I did not listen what the teachers taught plus I wasn't up to any tuition classes, AND I'd not done my revision, you think I know what's the topic about ah? You think I can still score like how I did last time?

Of course NO!

However, with unknown reason, I'm not stressed and I don't know why. Maybe I'll be, when the clock shows 1am on Monday and I've still got more than half of the sickly-thick referrence book to go. Oh yes I'll definitely be!

'Mummy, can I be lazy for this exam and don't study? Since its the last few weeks of form 4. Next year only I study SERIOUSLY again.'

'=.= 38 la you. Your study you manage yourself, its your own future ah.'

Is that a yes or no? LOL.

My mum and I talked about my study after form 5. I told her I'm totally not interested in all the biotech, biochem, doctor etc etc aka the very-advanced-science-thingy. They simply make me feel sick. Guess what, I'm soo thankful that my mum isn't the NO-I-WANT-YOU-TO-BE-THIS-AND-YOU-MUST-BE type of parent, she actually had no comment when I told her I'm QUITE interested in hotel management and hospitality when most of the parents expect their children to be a doctor or something like that. She even said that she already knew I can't be a doctor because I'm sooo afraid of disgusting stuff, like you know, operation or a big rotten wound or a bloody chopped hand which the flesh can be seen. EWWWWWWW.

The conclusion is, like Carissa said, WHY ARE WE IN SCIENCE CLASS?

Good question huh?

Alright, please pray that I'll at least START my revision today. Sighhhhh.

Random: Prediction of myself in few days time.

Totally moodless for books.

I know I should be studying now but how? I couldn't push myself to open my books, there wasn't even a single thought of that brushes across my mind. 'Sighing' over my laziness and forever-dragging-attitude, I wonder when will I start touching my books? Will it be too late by then? Sigh, I'm seriously worried. But damn me, no matter how scared I am I still failed to make myself study. !@$#%$^ right? -_-

Maybe I'm just lack of motivation to work hard because... Well, I have no goal no dream no ambition, so why bother to torture and force myself so hard? There's no point! I know this piece of thought is very wrong but sorry, I'm only a small little tiny pathetic human.

Never mind, I'll face the coincidence later. I know I will.

Anyway, have been quite into this particular Hong Kong TVB drama series named Moonlight Resonance lately. Ah yes, when exam's coming in few days time I'm what-the-heck-ly addicted to it. Alright, ignore my babels. Its indeed a really good show, especially the tears earning part, lol. Spend some time for it if you are able to! HEHEHE.

There's this song from the drama series, named 爱不够 (Not Enough Love) by 林峰 (Raymond Lam I guess?). Quite a nice song, added it to my playlist. Shuffle my playlist until you get the song if you are interested =)

Here's the lyrics! Sorry if the translations are not good enough, I've tried my best. -_- DON'T LAUGHHHH!

收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 愛猜到沒有
Hiding it beneath my eyes, can the love guess it?
愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你開心就夠
After the laughter, I'll step back as long as you are happy
這種感覺太親厚 講一千句也不夠
This feeling is too intense that a thousand words ain't enough
假使講了你聽到後 或會走
Even if it was told, you might leave after listening
這種戀愛太罕有 不須真正擁有
This love it too rare that it doesn't have to be really owned
成全 衷心祝福然後 就放手
Giving a heartfelt blessing, and then let go

放手 放開所有 彼此更自由
Let go everything and we'll both have more freedom
放手 其實我絕非愛得不夠
Let go, but it isn't because I've not love you enough
放手 豁出所有 還有這個好友
Let go, forget everything, at least I'll still have you as my friend
已經 已經足夠
That's already enough

遙遠是宇宙 靜靜在背後 去看守就夠
The distance is as if a universe, thus guarding from your back in silence is enough
這種感覺太親厚 講一千句也不夠
This feeling is too intense that a thousand words ain't enough
即使一剎有過衝動 挽你手
Though there was a sudden impulsion to grab your hand
這種戀愛太罕有 不須真正擁有
This love it too rare that it doesn't have to be really owned
成全 多捨不得仍然 是放手
No matter how unwilling I am I'll still let go

放手 放開所有 彼此更自由
Let go everything and we'll both have more freedom
放手 其實我絕非愛得不夠
Let go, but it isn't because I've not love you enough
放手 豁出所有 還有這個好友
Let go, forget everything, at least I'll still have you as my friend
已經 已經足夠
That's already enough

放手 我的牽掛 找不到盡頭
Let go, my missing will never reach an end
放手 期望你幸福甚麼都有
Let go, wishing that you'll be blissful and gifted with everything
也許 愛很深厚 然而我早看得透
My love might be real deep but I've already got through it
放手 至可擁有
Let go, only then I can have you.

The song is really nice, very touching that I could feel the emptiness of the singer (though its fake, ha ha -.-) Lovee it! =)

Back to SCHOOOOL =(

Holiday's ending in 12 hours time.

That's soooo sad. Why holidays always end so freaking fast whereas when it comes to school days, the time crawls even slower than a snail? Its unfair! Urh well, I don't deny that I was pretty bored during holiday, but but but.. You know, its school! Imagine the text books, homeworks, and TEACHERS spinning around you everyday. Worst of all, DANG DANG DANG! The final exam, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! SCREAMS !@##@%#@$^%$% So far my revision progress still remains as ZERO, salute me! T____T

Instead of looking forward to the next holiday which will be Deepavali, I have to now force myself to focus on the exam that falls BEFORE and AFTER Deepavali. Crap right? Blame the whoever lahhh! The genius who set the exam schedule, ish. Purposely wanna ruin our holidays!

Randomly talked and thought about my ambition and future yesterday. Then I realised I have totally no idea of what my future will be at all! Not even a little bit of sketch. All I know is I'm not gonna spend my time with plants for the rest of my life. NEVER! No to the complicated biotech biochem and stuff like that too, they'll simply kill me in no time. So you ask me, why am I in science class then? Hmmm, I wonder too.


And honestly, I won't be surprised if I really flunk my final term.
No, I'm not joking.

Pineapple!

Crap, are you telling me its Friday already?! How can it be?!!!

Aww, noooooo! I failed almost all my mission I set when holiday just started. Sigh sigh, that's me. School'll be back in 2 days time, and final? 1 week+2days left. OWH MY GOD. My revision errr.... BIG BIG SIGH. Forget bout it!

My sis had been asking for pineapple tarts since long ago. Since I was quite in the mood today, and most importantly, I was rotting, why not do her the favour? xD And so here's what came out..

Common, traditional patterns.

In a tart shell.

Porcupine! xD

Hotdog =)

Looks like a lunch box, right? xD

To be honest, instead of real baking, I actually played with the dough. Hoho, shaped them into different shapes and patterns. Had fun? Of course I do!

Paparazzi!

Random.

Sometimes it feels like I’m so alone, even if when people are right with me. I’m unreachable at times. And it makes me just want to crawl away and hide from the entire world. I used to do that a lot more and no one seemed to notice. But these days I have different people in my life. And they don’t seem to want me to do that. But I still want to sometimes. In fact, most of the time lately I just want to disappear.

- blackthorn28

Everyone experienced the same situation, am I right?

No?

Well, I do.

Right now.

Why beg?

I can't wait to get my driving lisence.

God knows why.

Yell !

I AM PROCRASTINATING MY

REVISION.

Countdown to Final:

16 days.

Whack me?

T_T

Holiday!

I'm here to blog about something that most of my friends blogged about.

HOLIDAY IS HERE. YAYYYYYYYYYY!!!
This was first what I thought before and when I got home from school today. As you know, school if off for one week because of Hari Raya. I even skipped my chinese class (again) due to today-last-day-of-school-dont-have-mood-to-stay-back-la.

BUT THEN, now I miss school.
Because I'm rotting already. School nowadays is fun, minus the lessons and homeworks of course. I love my class, especially the GG's =) WE ROCK! Hahaha. Oh yeah, I said I'm missing school now. Yess I really am, if there's no lessons on in school, my class will be the best best best place to lepak ever!

Ok now, another thing people have been cursing about. The FINAL EXAM. Approaching in 17 days time, WTH?! Everyone was actually cursing the teacher who set the exam timetable when we first got it. Sorry but we couldn't help it, because the exam lasts for 3 weeks! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! And both papers of a same subject are dragged sooooo far apart from each other, FOR WHAT?! Because of this I need to study twice for all the pure science subjects and SEJARAH. Crapppppp!

Oh well, I guess the 'whoever-concerned' simply like to torture the students. Who knows right?


And the best thing is, I didn't even start any of my revision. You say can die or not?

Lazyness, sigh -..-


I know how it feels, I know how much it hurts, but sorry I couldn't help a thing. It is just.... like that, you know? I no longer know how to deal with you, and the feeling of repelling is always there. Why why why why why? Maybe less words will do both of us good..

You know I don't like you right?

So just shut up lahh, can?!

Who stole the cookies from the cookie jar? xD

Let's see what have I full-filled in my to-do's and reminders.


1. I did none revision, except for a lil bit of homework.

2. Today isn't my day to online so it wasn't included.

3. Its 11.30pm now and I'm here blogging.

4. I almost fell asleep during Sejarah class.

5. Nahhh, complete failure.


. . . . .

OH crap. Fine fine, let's forget bout those rubbish.

I'm here, still awake, because of Cecilia's cookies! Hahaha, she wanted some snacks when she's out to Singapore and she requested COOKIES. Haaa, my pleasure to bake her some? XD

I guess we both are meant to be like that.
Know why? Because I see you the same way you see me.

I love you, but I don't respect you.
It explains everything? Perhaps. =)

As if you really do..

C'mon lahh, get a life!

To-Do's

I listed some to-do's and reminders to myself for the coming days. Sigh, I seriously have to do that to make sure my life is back on track and nothing is being neglected anymore. Well because.. As you can see, I had been ignoring my homework for the past few weeks and my school bag was never touched after I came back from school.

Sounds ridiculous right?! I KNOWWWW!!

Notes to ME.

1. Final exam is on 13 Oct and you have only 20 miserable days left! Start studying?!

2. Get your eyes off the monitor will you? Don't be glued to the computer!

3. Sleep early, at least before 11pm? Look at your soggy eyes and eyebags lahhh..

4. Stop dreaming in class? -..- With such great teachers around, I take it as a big challenge.

5. I prefer keeping this to myself =) B T C !! Don't ask me about it.



Please please please ME, practise these? People out there, help me out! Kindly REMIND me whenever I go the wrong way, hahaha. You know, I have very bad self- control :(

Best example?
My school bag is again untouched today while I actually promised myself to start my revision. So what I did for this whole evening? Some useless rubbish which I know is a total waste of time.

Oh well.... Big big sigh!

So it that your way?

Alright, I'm up to it!

Mannn, I really hate you that much huh?

Happy Birthday My BBBBBBBFF!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PING aka my LAO PO !

Finally, finally, welcome to sweet 16 :) Wish you have a better birthday than last year's, hahaha. I still remember how moody you were when I went to your house to accompany you during birthday, lool. Stay happy always yeah.. Even though we might not be as close as we were but remember, whenever you need a shoulder or an ear to share, I'm always there. No matter what, in my heart you are still my very best best friend. I promise :)))

Glad that you liked my present, hehehe. Wanna know how it was made? Hmm, let me show you! xD

First..

I spent half a day in the kitchen and stayed up to 1am to make these =)

Then,

From this plain, empty little box.. Due to my overwhelming semangat, after making the cookies, I continued to work on this box until 5am..

And the next day,

After a lil bit more work done in the morning, this is the outcome. Pretty? I loveee the bear! <3

Lastly,

The photo was taken in a moving car because my mum was rushing me and I didn't have time to snap a photo of the very final product. So yeah, after some packaging, this was on the way to the birthday girl's house. I actually made sure she wasn't at home before I went to give her a surprise when she comes back. =)

Okay okay, don't be so touched, LOL! Taste good or not you're gonna say its nice, I DON'T CARE! XDDD hahahaha~ So sorry I didn't manage to celebrate with you, but at least I did all I can. Once again, happy birthday! =)

Bestie Forever!
<3

Picture Post

Basically this is a simple photo post. Nehhh, I'm lazy to think of what to write, so why not let the pictures do all the talks? :)

First, take a look at my wrist.

What do you think? Pretty? Yes yes don't worry, your eyes are fine and you didn't see it wrong, this IS my wrist. Wonder why is it 'decorated' like this? Ask the volleyball, blame the volleyball, loool!

Next, guess what's in the picture?

If you said cookies, BINGO! Yeap, they are cooookies. Handmade cookies made by me and only me for someone special. HEHEHE. For me, they are pretty good. But its not me who judge it, so yeah... I really hope its good enough for you to say you like 'em! They don't look attractive maybe, but hey! Don't judge the cookie by its look okay? xDD

Yummmmm...

Officially fallen.

If you happen to notice, my blog has been quite dead lately with no or less updates compared to those days when I first started blogging. You don't have to ask why because firstly, its too simple! The blogger is getting lazy, full stop. Second, the blogger will not be able to give you a satisfying answer as she herself is too, wondering why is she leaving her blog like this.

I'm in a really miserable mood recently. Not that anything bothers me, nothing does actually, but there's a feeling of hoping to be left alone whenever I'm home or even sometimes in school. Now when I go online, I prefer to appear as offline as I want nobody to disturb or mess around with me. Not that I hate to social but I'm just simply not in the mood for it. It feels so frustrating whenever some bloody annoying windows pop out on the toolbar, and I tend to ignore them no matter what or who they are.

Nowadays I'm lack of mood and the 'push' to do anything, almost everything including school, study, games, blog and stuff like that bore me to death. There's nothing I could do to cheer myself up even just a lil bit. Everything seems so boring and life has been really dull these days. I know it shouldn't be this way, I know I should be enjoying my life as a teenager. Yes I know very well and I really want to, but somehow I failed.

I always knew that I'm one who will never hestitate to treat someone or something with no mercy whenever I feel it is not right. It is called self- centred I guess? Well, yeah I do admit that sometimes I am. When it comes to certain matters, I really am. I care nothing about the rest but only myself and my own desire. But afterall it only happens once in a blue moon, as most of the time I tolerate ALOT with people and matters around me.

No I'm not ashamed, nor I am thick- skinned to say it out. I had been really really patient with people around me all the while that people tend to think I'm so soft and bla bla bla. Well the fact is, I wasn't really that soft actually, its all about the patience and the tolerance I've trained myself to practise. Because I know, there's no point to argue over some small matters. Why waste energy?

.
.
.

Its no longer a prediction, its now a fact, a solid- hard fact that can not be debated. Something has gone out of the frame, beyond the boundary. I do know I stand a mini-tiny-almost-zero chance but it couldn't be resisted. I had fallen but I did not regret for it, I'm not regret for it, and I won't be. It will always be a secret until the day it should be revealed comes. Orelse, it should be kept forever.

I feel a tinge of jealousy, telling me its not just an imagination.
And I'm surprised it actually hurts so much.

And as for you, I'm really sorry for the way things are going lately. I seriously don't know what the hell is wrong but everything seems so different that there's nothing left unchanged from the past. I feel so drifted away but there's nothing I could do. I did try to fix and send it back on track again but sadly, it didn't seem to work. You might not even bother anyway, even I wonder whether I really care or not but still, I'll try hard to not let it be this way.

Because there might not be anything left in the end.
Not even a single piece of memory.


IMYMAM.

HAHAHA.

Found out something really really surprising that
I had never, never, NEVER expect it to happen, not even a thought of that.

And its so FUNNY.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA.
I can't stop laughing right now, LOOOOL.

Ignore me.. xD


HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA.

xDDD

Mooncake Festival?

Mooncake Festival is tomorrow, yayyy!

Well urh, okay I admit that I'm faking my excitement out, hahah. It makes no difference to me this year actually, except for the presence of mooncakes at home. I just can't feel the atmosphere of the festival we used to have when I was still a little girl, with all the lanterns and candles with the neighbours kids =) The most memorable one was we used to build up our own very-simple stove using bricks and candles, and we actually fried eggs, rice and INSECTS on it. HEHEHE, childhood experiences xD

So anyway, one of my aunt organised a mooncake festival party and invited us as well. How was it? Well.... It was all about food, food and food. Damn =.=

Here are some pics taken there.

I eventually got bored after a while, so I went around the house and took some photos. Check out the 'rumah orang kaya', lol.

Then my sister joined me, and there goes....

Reflections :)

Something special today. I actually had water war with my sister and PARENTS as well. We were playing with water guns outside of the house where everyone could see us. Imagine the 40-plus-almost-50-parents and 2 secondary students aiming each other with water guns with their clothes all wet, can you believe it?!!!

HAHAHAHAHA.

Enjoyed it though. xD Sounds childish and crazy enough but so what? Its funn!

Wth is wrong now?!
Alright, let's get this done.
STOP STOP STOP and STOP before uou regret!!
(Regret already, though..)
Have some principle, please?