The end is near..

Its already October.
Times flies huh?

The thought of leaving the school in 2 months time is... Fascinating, yet a little of the opposite.

I'm more than happy to be untied by the sometimes-not-so-reasonable school rules, to donate the apron-like pinafore to my sister (ha!) or whoever needs it, to free myself from struggling to ace in the subjects which I am actually not quite interested in, to not wake up 6 something in the morning every weekday and da da da..

All these, of course, have been longing for and I believe it applies to many of the students out there too.

But when it comes to friends, I feel so reluctant to leave. The people I've lived together with for some time, the relationships that have been built up throughout the years make me wonder if I'll ever get to experience the same thing again. I had great memories with my mates, really.

Lol, a little too fast to write these? Maybe.

I suppose an emo post once in a while doesn't harm, so...

I know how you think about me and I shall say I kind of think the same way about you, too. But what can I do, because I understand that every person has different personality and we have to compromise to make things work in a good way. I suppose we tried, but sadly it didn't work out. I'm not ashamed to say that I did my part and at the same time, I do expect some effort from you too. Unfortunately, I find only myself, alone trying hard to adapt and fit in yet you did nothing. Nothing but expect me to be like you.

And then I thought, why must I change myself? I always enjoyed being myself, and if you're really one who cares, you should understand me well enough that I'm not the same kind of person like you are. I always say I'm cold- blooded, in a way, but actually its just my different way of showing my concern. I'm not the kind of person who would find you all the time to show you how important you are to me, I don't express my care directly, I don't talk alot but I care. Even people who aren't very close to me understand that very well. Honestly, I'm a little disappointed with how things turned out now. I find myself stepping away more and more from you, and, I find myself more comfortable with other people who are more like me. I guess we really have different way of thinking and handling things huh? We have different interest, different priorities of life and we don't think alike.

And this is what made things hard..

New SPM Grading System.

My mum jut showed me this article from the newspaper.

And this is the chart:

I wonder if this is a good news or a bad news..


Apa nii, suddenly change pulak.