The changes

What happened to my lovely home?

I wonder why my home is always in dead silence nowadays. Everyone doesn't seem to be really interacting with each other. Since months ago this had been happening, all of a sudden. Okay I know I did contribute a LIL BIT to this. I was being really emo for the past months, but seriously I don't think it affects much.

So what's the main cause? I think it goes to my dad's temper. Gosh he's acting VERY emotional, a hundred percent mood- swing. Tonight you can see him smiling and ajak-ing us to somewhere, then the next morning you might see him banging this and that with a charcoal- black face, all of a sudden with no reason. Sweat, how are we ever going to understand you like that? And everytime when he goes mad, the whole family will fall silence, awaiting the 'volcano' to errupt anytime.

Sigh, I wish our family can go back to how we used to be last time. Noisy yet warm. I kinda hate this family nowadays because it has no warm no happiness, nothing. Mum keeps complaining about how much she hates dad's attitude and stuff like that. Of course, me too hate it. He's making me to hate him. I know I'm bad and I shouldn't, but I can't help it. How do you expect me to still LOVE and RESPECT someone who explodes anytime without warning? I'm afraid to go near, okay?

Talking bout the BBQ party I had on friday. Well it didn't turn up to be a BBQ party because I didn't even see a BBQ tray. Someone said that its a mee-hoon-and-chicken-curry-and-jelly party, whatever! I can't say it was REALLY fun because I did get bored sometimes, to be honest. Yet overall it was okay, I still had fun. I stuffed my stomach with plenty of jellies. I'm addicted weh, hahaha! Didn't really sleep well that night, thanks to the HYPER Esther who tortured us and did not let us SIP [sleep in peace] Slept at 2++am and woke up at 8am. Tiiiiredd!

I finally can skate FASTER than I used to be. Hahaha, but too bad didn't really skate much due to some reason. Sigh sigh, I'm gonna skate for the whole day next time I go, HEHEHE! I lovee skating at HIGH speed, but I couldn't stop. And I always end up banging into people, HAHAHA! Oh yea, some Malay girl "WING-ed" in front of me and... Her hands banged right onto my face. What the heck man = =" So so funny, this is the first time I see this happening. LOL. AND IT HAPPENED ON ME!!!!

My sister is already in UK. I still can't believe it. My sister? In UK? for 3 months? I'm not gonna see her for 3 months? Awww, feel sad when I think bout this. She's the only one who will bring us around to shop and walk, I miss doing that. :( I really thought of telling her that she should have been to Sunway Pyramid when she was hunting for a purse few days ago, because I saw plenty of them selling just now. Then only I realise, ah I can't call her, she's in UK. I'm gonna miss her I guess.

Then, I'm working tomorrow. RM80, yay! My second sis finally begged the manager to give me a slot, for the last day of the book fest. I missed a chance actually, cause I was offered to work there today. Couldn't make it since I went to skate. Sigh sigh. She said its gonna be REALLY tiring, and I'm so looking forward to it. Haha, my first working experience, bless me! xD

Let the party begins!!

lalalallallaa ~

Amanda asked me to blog about tomorrow's BBQ party, so here I am. Hahahaha, she is SO excited. And she made me excited TOO. Yay yay I can't wait for it, I wanna party party xD The last party I went to was like SO long ago that I can hardly remember anything about it. So please, make this party fun :D

BBQ party = food = CALORIES = FATS!

Sigh, the only thing I hate about party. Yeah, fats. This always-sitting-and-sleeping-and-eating holiday makes me FAT! I gained like, 1kg? Holy shit, how incredible man. How much effort do I need to cut the 1kg off again? And if I'm still gonna continue my current lifestyle aka a pig's lifestyle, I doubt I can cut it off. In fact, I guess, I'll gain another few more kg(S). Someone stop me from craving for FOODDD!

I don't want to say NO to pizzas T _ T Why can't my metabolism rate be high naturally? Why?!!

Yay -.-

Black is boring.
So I've decided to change my blog into white. Found this lil cutie blog skin and did some edit works, and TADA! Presenting my new blog skin, muahahaha!

Okay update next time! :3

Cheers!

Too much Maple?

No update for yesterday, because my holiday is b.o.r.i.n.g ... And yeah, I've got nothing to write about. My daily routine? Wake up, on computer, breakfast, computer game and blablabla.... Nothing much, except I'm now again into Maple Story. Uh ow, I can play whole day without stopping, wtf - -" I don't want to be addicted again, Noooo!!!

Sis is going to UK this friday night, but I'm feeling nothing. Ehh its not that I'm cold- blooded, but 3 months only okay, and it makes no difference since she's already staying with her boyfriend for so long. I wish I can go to UK too, I like UK with no reason :) The only thing is the currency there, oh well so so unfair -.-"

Urmm... You see? I don't know whatelse can I write anymore, sweat. told ya my holiday is boring. Can't wait for the outingsssss!!

Early bird!

I woke up at 7+am today, haha! Just to help my mum to make 'Zong Zi'. For those who do not know, its a pyramid- shaped dumpling wrapped in leaves. Well it requires some skills to shape it well, and proud to say, my dumplings were OK! Hahaha, at least they looked like dumpling, LOL! And my mum gave me a "P" lisence for it xD.

Yesterday's work was... Ouch? Seriously not tough but tiring though, earned RM20 in 3- 4hours, haha! Mum's asking me go go again tomorrow, but I'm feeling lazyyyyyyyy. Sweat~ Will see how later ;)

AND IT GAINED TO 44, WTH!

Addiction?

Look at the time! I know the night is still young for some of you out there, but for me it is so so abnormal, especially when I'm going to WORK tomorrow!

What makes me staying up so late? Haha, an addiction maybe? Proudly announcing that I'm once again addicted to MAPLE STORY. Ow My God how lame am I? I used to complaint about the game being so boring and so childish and stuff like that, yet now I'm so so into it. How embarassing? Well, I can say nothing. Haha! Hope the addiction won't last long, if it does, my form4 studies are dead meat.

And yeah, I did mention WORK. Not really working as in going somewhere in some uniform and serving some people, but I'm helping my uncle out! Hee, its a tiring job but once in a while, so nevermind! =) The most important point is that I'll get $$ as return, so its worth don't you think so? I do, hahaha!

Alright alright, good night ;]

Welcome holidays :)

Yeah, holiday is here. *cheers* I had been despo for holidays since weeks ago, and finally it's here! YAY! Today's the first day of the 14-days holiday, and I've already got a rough schedule of my plans xD Fully booked? Nah not really, but I AM going out quite often, MUAHAHA!

Well I planned to work in book fest for 10days at first, but since the stupid manager refused to give me a slot, fine. I'm gonna spend instead of earning then, HAHAHA! I know I'm gonna dig a big hole in my purse but I don't care. Once in a while okay? ;) Relax- lah!

Okay so let's talk bout my plans. I've got to sing-K in TS, BBQ & overnight at Amanda's house and ice skating together the next day, another BBQ session& overnight at another friend's house, basketball games maybe, and Roxy Summer Splash? The last one is not confirmed yet, still considering whether to go or not to go. Hee, cause its like, on the second last day of holiday? I don't really like to hang out when holidays almost end, I just can't REALLY enjoy when I think bout the coming school days. >_<

No plans for today, and I'm bored. I wanna go SHOPPING, but my sister went to work blablabla, ok so I'm forced to stay at home doing nothing, fine. =.=

ho0ray!

I know I'm late for one day, but YAY! Mid- term is over! Finally finally.. HOHOHO! Though I'm not as happy as what I expected, but still.. felt so relaxed right after I passed up my add maths paper, hehehe!! And I really felt pity for those who were studying hard for their accounts/EST/Eng Lit papers. xD

I wanted to sleep after I got home, but I don't know why I couldn't though I already on the air cond and off all the lights. I just couldn't stop my brain from thinking. = ="

Going to school today was totally a waste of time. I've gained NOTHING, NOTHING except for my Maths paper and Physics paper 2. 98% for maths, not bad but somehow I'm a lil disappointed cause I actually aimed for full. Wasted 2 marks on some stupid careless mistakes. Nevermind, I know. I should be thankful for getting 98%. 47/ 50 for Physics paper 2, yes I'm satisfied, but I doubt my paper 1 is good, cause.. I know myself, I did ALOT mistakes. I know.. I hope it won't turn out too bad..

Add Maths?

I am stressed.

I've been doing add maths since few hours ago, and I realised that my add maths sucks like shit. I couldn't do the questions I used to get now, why is that so? Because I'm a lazy bump. Because I'm a stupid lazy bump who did not practise add maths. Because I'm a stupid lazy bump who did not practise add maths and made my add maths skill rusted. Who to blame? Myself.

I'm gonna practise add maths really hard from now on. I don't wanna regret someday like now, I hate this feeling.

Last day!

I'm back! With my head aching like what, gonna take a nap later. Today's paper well.. let's don't talk about that, I don't wanna be haunted by it. Geeeee....

Tomorrow's add maths, and like what Amanda said, my add maths skill RUSTED. Urhh urh yes, I forgot all the formulas all the workings. Man I really need to do something.

Okay, going for my nap now. ;)

SQueezee da chemistry!

I was struggling with chemistry for the whole evening. That's still ok, I can deal with that, but the thing is I DON't UNDERSTAND A THING! Ow My God. The paper is like.. in 9more hours? and I'm here so blur so confused with all the elements and chemicals. Someone please help meeee!
My mind is.. blank. Or maybe stuffed with all kind of elements that I can't actually recall any now. Oh no oh no, I'm so so dead.

Special thanks to Miss Txx for teaching like a rocket and made all of us showing a 'huh? what's that?" face. And making me feeling so helpless right now. tearsss! So please blame no one but yourself if the whole class fails okay? :] you deserve it. (but yet, I don't think WE deserve a teacher like this.)

Its now 10.40pm, and the paper starts at 7.40am. Well... I don't know what to say and what to do. Thinking of the paper makes my hands shake. So let's pray that I at least don't fail my paper okay? Bless me.

Thanks to Amanda for shooting (or banging) chemistry together with me!
Together we die!
Sama- sama kita mati!

HAHAHAHAA.

Yay!

New blogskin! Cheerss! ;]

Spent whole day swimming in the net and searching for nice skins, sweat. I spotted one really cool really my-style-and-my-taste skin, but but I don't know what's wrong with the alignment that I couldn't get it right. So, Have to give up T_T

Here's a pic from the skin. ;( I loveeee it!

Cool huh? Sigh sigh.. I really wanted it, but the noob-in-html-stuff me couldn't find which part of the code gone wrong.

Holiday tomorrow! Chemistry on Tuesday!

My revision is not done yet, yay! *Punch* myself, CONTROL YOURSELF LAH!

!@#$%^&*(

After holding for so many days, I couldn't take it anymore.

!@#%$&%#&%&$%%^#$#@$!@#$#@^%#^%$
All I want to do is scream and scream and scream everything out!!
I AM SO STRESSED . SO DEPRESSED because of all the f*cking papers. They turned me down like what! Papers are getting worse day by day and I AM GOING CRAZY.

So so so bad mood.
Glad that I have some time to rest. And continue my war?
. . .

I . just . ruinned . every . single . subject . and . I . am . gonna . get . shit . for . my . results .

What a miserable day?

Today

A disaster

With stupid and sucking papers

Which I am gonna fail.

I ruinned my sejarah paper 2. So what if my paper 1 is ok?

And I ruinned my Bio paper 2. Paper 1 is tomorrow, but so what? I can't score even if I do well in it, cause my paper 2 sucked. And I doubt I can do well in it.

Sigh. The conclusion? I hate Bio.
Speechless and moodless.
Super emo right now.

. . . . . . . .

AHH!!

I just noticed that I made another SPELLING mistake for my physics paper! WTF WTF WTF what's wrong with me?! I'm wasting my marks on those stupid spelling error. Ahhhhhh!!

Getting more and more moodless now. Damn it. I thought the paper was ok, but seems like I'm wrong.

And I did not start my Bio revision yet.

So speechless.

Countdown to freedom - 7 days

Another day passed! Oh sorry, its another 2days passed! HOHOHOHO! Cant wait cant wait~ I wanna go crazy I wanna play all I can I really mean itt!! Thats the time to release all the FREAKING EXAM STRESS and play! Ahhh!!

Okay, report time.
Yesterday was Maths and English 2. Maths was kinda easy for me. Aiming for full, haha! I hope I made no careless mistakes? = = Anything. I know I'm quite safe for an 1A ;) Made me so happy after the paper.
BUT BUT BUT..
English paper ruinned everything. That was really a punch on me. Ouch ouch, terrible Horrible VEGETABLE!! Arghhhhh all I did was crap and crap and crap without knowing what I was crapping about. I ruinned my english subject!! Sobbbbb..

Today!
First was Moral paper, which cracked my brain and I suffered like hell. Kept thinking about nilai and nilai and nilai.. Seriously felt so dizzy and exhausted, argh! Then, physics 2? Heck me I spelled MICROMETER as MICROMETRE. Stupid stupid stupidddd waste marks only.. GRRRR!!

Okok sejarah-and-bio-for-tomorrow time!!
Bless me.

Music please?

I want some music for my blog.
And some more advanced elements, hehehehe!

Gonna spend some time here editting my blog after the mid- term!
TRANSFORM!!! kekekekekee!! (Ignore me, I'm already mad.)
Tagboards, chat box, cool template, cool pictures and bla bla.. Can't wait!
Just wait to be dressed my dear blog ! xDD

Most importantly, MUSIC ! !
But how ? how how how? Any pros here willing to teach? xD

Oh crap..
I'm still blogging. Someone please smack me! T_T

STUDY STUDY STUDY !

2 down, 7 more to go.

Yeah, 7 days more to suffer.

After that? Its time for holiday ;)

Had my BM paper 2 and Sejarah paper 1 today. BM paper, what a disaster. It felt like endless! Keep flipping the question paper but the questions just won't end. I have to check the time out everytime I finish one question, racing with the speed of time! Luckily I managed to finish it on time at last, phewwww... (though those answers are mostly... well.. at least its not blank ok.. )

And my Sejarah paper! Didnt come out as bad as what I imagined, bwahaha! Quite satisfied with it actually, though I noticed one wrong right after I pass up the paper -.-! Nvm, I'm still happy with it! Gee.. Paper 1 is settled, but paper 2? Ahh I couldnt imagine those essays.. Seriously got no confidence to write essays about history facts. My brain is SO not functioning well these days!!

And... Boo!!

I spent 3hours plus watching youtube, how guilty. And I'm still lepak-ing around.
Sighhh, better start my revision now.

Gambateh!!

* I know a bunch of exam talks are boring but I can't help it! Its exam season!!! > <

History, history & history..

My mind is full of Yunani, Rom, India, China, Alexander the Great, Julius Caesar, Chin Shih, Socrates ... e t c ...

What the heck.

Why must I study about those none-of-my-business topics? Why why why someone please tell me! I don't even bother what they did or what happened n years ago!! Eh people, we must always look forward okay? Stop reminding everyone about the past la! Especially when those stuff were like.. hello? Thousands or millions years ago? Whats the point repeating them again and again? If you expect me to APPRECIATE their effort, sorry la.. Its so not my style, and... I'm sure majority of the students feel the same way.

Sigh sigh sigh...
You freaking subject totally turned me down!!!!!!




This is exactly how I feel right now.
Pathetic huh?



Couldn't make myself finish the revision for sejarah.. Someone please help me!! The paper is on monday, I'm so SO out of time!

T ___________ T feel so helpless right now...

I seriously feel like giving up.

Can I ?

Bloody mid- term.

Sorry to say, I once again created a new blog and left my old blog all the way on its own. Well if I'm asked to count how many blogs I have had, guess I couldn't give the exact answer.

But who cares?

Thanks to Cecilia and Amanda who INSPIRED me to get a new blog. Ha ha, you guys have really cool blogs and I can't resist making one for myself too. But I doubt if I can keep the blog updated always, since I'm always lack of determination and patience. Lazyness kills.

Im kinda mad and tension these days.

Yes, blame the bloody mid- term. I have to force myself like hell to keep myself revising, and history text book actually made me cry.
Blooooody hell!

Damn those who simply changed or even SUGGESTED changing the timetable. I hate you I hate you I HATE YOU! Thanks for spoiling my mood to study and now I'm so going to fail everything.

And I don't care.