Another page of memories

Though some parts were pretty boring, but I would say I enjoyed the whole Merdeka Countdown hangout, and that created another page of memories in my life =)

Memorable parts:

1. Finally, I did not sleep for the whole night. For the first time, I made it =)
2. Got to hang around and feel-like-owning-a-house without any guardians buzzing around.
3. Yum cha at 3.30am?
4. First ever Merdeka Countdown in my life.
5. Got to know people around better =)
6. [ . . . ]

The next hangout I believe, is gonna be long-after. So yeah, make every memory lovely and meaningful =) Pictures? Here.

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So, what does that no-big-wow-but-only-peace-feeling shows? Maybe I'm right, I'm still myself and I did not change. I should be grateful for it because it was proven that it isn't true, its all fake. Yet somehow I know I might change really soon, or I'm already changing, but in the other way round, towards another end.

And I believe, the other end will definitely be much better than the first one.
Not? Who knows. I wish.

Why can't friends trust each other by the way? Do I or do we make you feel so unsecured?
I don't want all these, it hurts really, really much.

We love you.
I promise.

So trust us please?

Sorry and thank you..

Merdeka Countdown

I SANGAT EMO.


No la, joking. That was yesterday, hehehe.

Today I'm all ready to partyyyy!

Ciao!

Annoying Day number 2!

There goes the second annoying day of my life. I don't know why but simply feeling moody once I got up from bed. Maybe I was lack of sleep? Or was it something else that ruined my mood? No idea! I felt so draggy when I was on the way walking to my class, wishing them to announce that the school is off anytime. Why do I hate school so much?

Nehh, too much of outgoings and fun I had during the holiday. Couldn't pull myself out of it lah, lol. -_-

The first comment I heard after I stepped into school was..
"Wah, never sleep well lerh? See your eyes also know, become panda ady!"

- by Artisha Tan.

Oh no, were my eye bags really that obvious? T_T

The whole class was so hyper today except for me. Perhaps that's what made me feel what-the-hell-is-so-funny-and-to-mengada-about when certain people in my class got SOO excited about some lame stuff. Is stepping on shit something so glamour that you kecoh-ed for so freaking long? I doubt. And my mood got worse from bad that I actually shouted out of frustration in front of my BM teacher. Opps? I didn't mean it but she just passed by me right on time when I banged the book on the table. Sorry? Lol, bet she's shocked to see the other side of the-always-quiet-and-looks-soft me. xD

Anyway, I must say that I'm really in love with volleyball now. Hehe, once I touched the volleyball and started playing it, all the dull clouds floating on my head started to disappear, hahha. Dramatic? Lool. By the time when the practise ended, I was totally cheered up. Though I sprained my finger and I can't write properly now but who cares? It worths the fun right? <3

By the way, I'm skipping school tomorrow, yay!

Merdeka countdown and sleepover is on. Another big YAY!

Once again?

I wonder why things always end up that way?

Not that I'm blaming anyone, but why do small little things always ruin everyone's mood? Why is it so hard for some simple things to workout? Sigh, I don't know why.

Its not the first time, or should I say almost everytime, there must be something that turns people down? Though it might not last and things somehow workout in the end, but still the depression was there, and we all know how disappointing it is. So why make life so miserable?

Take it easy, okay? Afterall, its just a hangout.
Relax, people.

Emo-ing.

Perhaps its time for music.

Another sleepless night? Maybe.

Kiss The Rain

The weather is really cooling now. It started raining since around 1.00pm until now, yeah. Sitting down, holding the warm cup of coffee in my palms, woooots xD I love it.

I'm surprised that I actually survived through 2 Physics, 2 Sejarah, 1 BM and 1 Maths periods without sleeping. I thought I would just fall asleep since I slept at around 3am yesterday. HEHEHE. I've not been getting enough sleep since 2 days ago but you know what? I didn't feel that sleepy in school, weird huh?

Too, I never knew that staying awake in the middle of the night while its raining feels so good. Covered in blanket, hugging a pillow and lying lazily on bed with the music on, listening to the trickling rain drops and the peaceful silence of the night. Goshh, I was amazed and fell in love deeply with it.

I shall do this more often, yeah <3

Independence Day celebration on this Friday, awww. I wish I can skip it, please? The kononnya-Merdeka-countdown and sleepover on Merdeka eve, ahhhh. Hoping it will come true! And I believe, it will again be a blast. xD

Eureka!

People, let's cheer! For me completing the whole Merdeka banner. Yayy!

Finally finally, I'm done with it. =) No matter how ugly it looks, I just dont care. Lol!

Comments? Keep for yourselves, I just wanna get rid of this dumb stupid cloth. =.=

Btw, going to school today is a waste of time. (Again, lol.) I've met the boring-est penceramah ever. Enough said!

I hate PARI =(

Its now 11.53pm, the last day of school holiday. Instead of snoring sleeping nicely on my bed, I'm still here trying hard to keep my eyes open.

Wondering why? There.

Its suppose to be a class project but duh, as if it will be. Obviously it will be all done by only one person if its given right before the holiday right? Sigh, and therefore I'm the unlucky monitor who get to keep this huge piece of cloth. See my last minute work? 6-year-old drawing, yeah I know.

DON'T CARE LA!

If any of you complaint about its ugly-ness, I'm gonna shoot you really hard. So better shut up yeah? xD

One more minute and the holiday ends officially.
Awwww, bye bye. =)

Countdown for Merdeka? Let's go, I just wanna hang out. HEHE!

Amanda, don't emooooooo~ MOOOO~

School's back.

Yeah, so after a week of enjoyment, the school is back.

SCREAMSSSSSSSSS!!

You know how much I hate school, don't you? Especially with the Merdeka banner cloth lying blankly on my table, noooo! I don't wanna face it! =(

And yeah, I seriously gonna miss this holiday. I really really really had fun, though there are down times with tears but still, I enjoyed it.

Amanda, Cecilia, Esther and the N2O's, thanks for filling my days with laughters =) Love ya all!



Looking back at the pictures taken in Port Dickson, I'm seriously missing everything there. I hope we can have those moments again =)

Random.

There are times when tears just can't be controlled.

Feeling so miserable, so helpless, so lost, so depressed.

You wanna scream out loud, you wanna burst into tears,

but you don't know why.


Can someone explain to me, why?

LYLAS

LOVE YA LIKE A SISTER.




<33333333

Damn, why am I so emo.

Bad day

Today is such a bad day for me.

Woke up early in the morning with aching stomach. Feeling sick and cold all day with my hands freezing until now, maybe because it rained? My face is hot but my eyes are filled tears, eeeeeeeee. The conclusion is? I'm sick. Noooo! =(

Plus, maybe what happened yesterday sorta affected my mood. I don't know why but I just cried, again before I fell asleep yesterday. Ahhh, I don't wanna be emo! Glad to hear that you are fine again Amanda, and don't feel sorry anymore =) Everyone has their own time to be emo ok. Hahahah.

By the way, sis is coming back from UK in less than 20days time. And she bought me a set of bikini. What the heck right? Lool.

I wish things will stay the same always.

I pray hard for it.

Port Dickson.

Oh well, I'm back from Port Dickson.

The beach, the sand, the breeze, the waves, the sea water, the banana boat, the chit chats....

AND I'M MISSING IT ALREADY. Ahhh, I miss every single moment I spent there especially the pillow talks. It just felt so good to listen to the real voice of one's heart. But too bad we missed the sunrise although I tried hard to not to sleep. Sorry la, I can't survive without sleeeeping. >_<

Yet, the trip ended with emo-ness. Sigh, firstly was the bloody boring movie which bored me like hell in the freezing cinema. Second, I can't believe I cried out so easily today as the last time I cried was like.. few months ago? Sigh... Amanda, cheeeer up! Don't cry, you make me cry too =(. Life is like that, be tough and stay strong.

Don't think too much ok? We all love you.
And you know we will always be there whenever you need us.

Not blogging much bout the trip. I'm freaking exhausted and tired right now. Photos later.

Ahhhh, EMO-NESS.
Scream out loud. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH@!#%$@%^Y# *%^& #@^%#$$Z #^4

And cry out loud?

Damn = =

Holiday!

Finally I'm here to update again! Had been quite busy these days with all the assignments buzzing around, but anyway, holiday is here! Yeayyyy! xD Maybe its pretty late for me to scream out loud now but who cares? Its still holiday! HEHEHE.

And most importantly, the long-awaited Port Dickson is tomorrow! I've already got half my luggage packed yesterday, unbelievable hor? Since I'm always a last-minute-person. See how excited I am? xD

Let's talk bout the events I had few days ago.

The gathering turned up to be a disaster, like what I expected, with only 3 schools participated and not more than 100 participants in total. No punctuality was shown but in fact, it was a big mess. Everything was done last minute, and I was really shocked to see everything in raw material when I first reached the school at 12pm. The best part is, some seniors sent Carissa, Mei Yeen and I to Selayang Mall to pick the visitors up without knowing who and how many people will be there.

"Hey, may I know how many people are we collecting there?"
"No idea, just wait."

I couldn't help but yelled at my phone when her reply showed up. So, we ended up lepak-ing around in Selayang Mall for around an hour to wait for the unknown guests. We eventually got fed up and decided to walk back at 3pm with nobody else. At that time, I really wished to take the other way and go home. Sighhh...

Next year, I promise, we will have a better planning. A camp sounds better, not? What do you think? =)

Random pics from the gathering.

Waiting for my turn.. Weird pose huh.

Me on stage, haha!

My urh, person-to-confess-to?

Weng Yian & Carissa!
THEY MADE ME 'NG' ON STAGE! T_T

Today

I'm feeling lazy to write a long blog post today, so yeah let's summarize it! I've categorized 'today' into 2...

Things I like/ happy about today =)

1. Volleyballl! Forever on top!
2. Add Maths!
3. Miss Tan-of-today xD
4. The word 'annoyer' !
5. The reading, HEHE.
6. My Biology drawing
7. The forgotten Chemistry test, HAHA.


Things I hate/ annoyed me today =(

1. Super duper hot weather in the morning
2. The noise from the construction site nearby my classroom and
3. The 'VROOOM' produced when those huge lorries passed by
4. My certain SENIORS!
5. Poooor self- control
6. Toilet reports
7. Being the chosen 'lucky girl' for some Moral powerpoint.

That's it.

Gathering on Saturday, big sighhhhh.
I wish to get really sick now.

Annoyed Day!

"Stop doing that lah, its so annoying!"

People around me probably heard me saying that alot these days. I don't know what's wrong with me but everything seemed so annoying to me, even when they did nothing wrong at all. Though I know whenever I say that, people find me annoying too but sigh, I can't help it. I shall let the time cure my being-annoyed-ness.

And again, to Amanda and Cecilia,

It's NOT PMS! arghh -..-"
You guys just don't wanna trust me huh, lol.

School was fun today with all the lame jokes and so called 'IQ' questions. Hahaha, I love Mrs. Ganesar and Puan Manmeet for their sporting-ness, you both rock! =) Teachers look so CUTE (regardless or their age xD) when they are tricked or blur! HEHEHE. I'm evilll. =P

But then, some people in our school are still being VERY annoying. Better not mention who to make sure no trouble caused, but they are very influential person in the school. What made you think you are so high-at-the-top that you can't even spare few seconds to do something very simple? Is your time THAT precious? No, I bet.

Holiday is next week. WAAAAA, that's so fast! In 1week time I'm going to Port Dickson (YAYYYY!), in 2months+ time I'm gonna have my year- end holiday, and in 4 months plus time I'll be in FORM5! Ohhh my goshhh! I'm so old. Then? SPM and a long long break.

Oh btw, my school's Renjer Puteri is organising an Any-Unifom-Body Gathering this Saturday, 18 of Aug. Anyone interested kindly inform me ASAP! =) Its from 3pm to 9pm!

Lastly...
Urhmmmmmm.....
Hahaha, fine. Don't need to blog about you then! xD

I hate seniors.

Damn you bee-yotch.

Sorry for starting my post with such rude line, but just let me express my hatred towards someone. Damn, who do you think you are? A VIP? No, but I bet in your mind you thought you are way important than everyone else. At times, I have to press myself so hard to prevent myself from shouting at your silly attitude. You thought you are so cute, so better-than-the-rest, you critisize the others so much but yet, you never look at yourself in the mirror. Hey, when you call someone a bitch female dog, do you know you too are like that? Wake up, you dumb ass.

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Early in the morning, I went to UPM for Dogathon 2008. Congratulations to the organizers for achieving 600 dogs and creating The Biggest Dog Gathering record in The Malaysian Book of Record. =)

But then, I was soooo sleepy that everything failed to attract me. Not even the cute little tiny puppies who shake their asses when they walk. I spent most of my time sitting down and watching the dogs with a eyes-half-closed face. Took no pictures because I wasn't in the mood at all.

PD trip had been shortened, from 3 days 2 nights to 2 days 1 night. Oh well, whatever as long as I get to go there. No more changes, PLEASE! I'm bored of it.

You liar. How fake can you be?

I'm glad for not trusting your words!

Its a so-random. =)

Just when I look through my MSN contact list, I realised that there are so many people whom I used to be close, or perhaps VERY CLOSE with, but not anymore. Flashing back the memories and moments we had together, and looking at the recent me, I then realise how much I've been through, and how much I had grown up.

And you know what? I have a thought in my mind, a shouldn't-exist-at-all thought. Get rid of them, get them out of my life, and have nothing to do with them anymore. They did nothing wrong, but I just don't want to be related to them at all. Not even as a friend. Looking at their lame behaviour, I wonder how did I deal with them in the past? Or, was I part of them? Did I behave like them too? Awww, how stuuupid. Maybe they made me recall my used-to-be-lifeless life I had that I'm desperate to cut them off from my life and make them passer-by's. I'm escaping from the truth that I had been such a jerk at those times. Boo.

I'd always know that I am a cold- blooded person, and I'm not ashamed to admit that. Whoever gets on my nerve, that's it. Say byebye, and we will go on our own way. I'll draw a very clear line between us and make sure nobody crosses it. Not even a hi or bye anymore, I'll treat you invisible, or maybe a total stranger? No matter how close we were. A meanie, am I?

Yes, I am.

Some simple clicks and types, the unwanted names will never appear in my life again. Bye bye!

Finally! :D

Finally finally, the trip to Port Dickson is now confirmed! I can't help but to cheer my lungs out when Cecilia's SMS popped into my eyes after I came back from school. HAHAHHA. Finally there's something working out! 3 days 2 nights NEAR THE BEACH to go crazy, how can I not be excited? xD

Oh well, I just don't wanna blog about school again. I know how dull it sounds, I know how bored you are of it, and I know how much I'm sick of the forever-the-same-thing-that-happened school posts.

I spent few hours hunting for a new blogskin but end up nothing attracted me. I even tried to edit the skins by myself but urhh, sorry to say I have no talent in it. Hahaha, whatever! I just don't understand the whole stretch of codings. Before I get myself to read and try to solve them my eyes are already blur, so yeah, forget about it.

By the way, school is on tomorrow. Yes, saturday. Sigh, I want to skip so badly but I know, its almost impossible. Nevermind nevermind, only 5 hours and 30 minutes in the school. Just blink your eyes and it will soon be over.

You know, sometimes you are just too over.

And I hate it.

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I don't know what to blog about today. Sigh, I wish my life can be more interesting. Other than school, online, eat, sleep and the everyday-routines, is there anything else that I can do?

I'm done with my oral test today, it was ok. But the word 'notch' made me lose 1 mark. Lool, whatever as long as my overall grade is not affected =) Also, the teacher-said-you-can-ask-questions-if-you-don't-know-anything-in-the-paper Maths test is over too. To be honest, I didn't give a damn to all the tests. For me, they are just test, they don't worth stressing myself! Take life easy, okayyy!

Tomorrow is the day for my official Bio teacher, Pn. C to be back after giving birth. Screamsssss! Okok I admit I don't hate her that much, but I'm afraid she'll go mad when she sees our study speed. We are still, at the very beginning of chapter 6. And the final is on 8 Oct, Hooo-ray! Imagine how fast she will/ needs to rush?

Lastly, immaturity sucks.
Grow up people!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

AMANDA AND CECILIA!

WELCOME TO SWEET 16 =D

Pictures <3

Pictures taken in Sunway, like finally.. Not much though since I had to lock my phone in the locker ><

Me, Artisha

Told you my eyebags are scary =)

dumdum the birthday girl, me!

Why am I the darkest? Sighh..

Cecilia the birthday girl!

All blurrrrred out, spot me?

The challengers! This is before..

During...

And After! Look at their faces, HAHAHA!

Lastly, a big cake for my sis. Happy belated birthday =)

Faded

Sometimes you just don't realise things are changing
It changes bit by bit
It seems so tiny, so doesn't-matter
that it causes you no pain
that you ignore it like nobody's business
that you thought it wouldn't affect much.

But in the end
When you finally notice the changes
its too late for you to recall the way it used to be.

Then you realise
It actually hurts so much
Feeling helpless
feeling lonely
feeling isolated
Regretting for your ignorance
But so what? Its all too late.

No matter how hard you try to fix it
The gap in between is still there
Opening widely
Reminding you about the distance between two's heart and soul
Being drifted apart from each other
yet there's nothing to be done.

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Mourning over the faded parts,
We both know how much we miss the past,
and how badly we want to go back.
I know you tried, and I tried too, but it just doesn't work.
Maybe, we are too far away,
or maybe, we lose the trust we had for each other.
I'm no longer the one to share secrets with, I'm out of your world.
When you are happy, when you are depressed, when you are disappointed, when you are hurt, when you need comfort, when you want a hug, when you need a shoulder to cry on, I no longer know. Sometimes through your blog, I read your feelings and being surprised for all those you've been through. Without me.

I miss the 'us' in the past.

Just got back from school. As usual, another sickening-tiring-and-boring Monday. Now, we are no longer afraid to speak our anger and insatisfaction out! Hahaha, I hope Pn. O will really help us in this matter. Save us, pleaseee! xD

Tomorrow will be the official birthday for Amanda and Cecilia. Happy birthday in advance since I won't be able to blog tomorrow. >< I hope we enjoy in Selayang Mall tomorrow. =)

Test, test, test, test, test, test. The teachers are so mean don't you agree? And too, I'm doing my oral test tomorrow. I love my lines =D Thank you Carissa and good luck for tomorrow morning!

You are getting more and more annoying.

Stop your dumb stories before I blast out!

Splashhhh!

I'm back from Sunway Lagoon! Overall, today was really fun =) Got tricked to get onto the something-like-pirate-ship ride. Fortunately I did not vomit, hahaha! Instead, I laughed all the way when I was on it. LoooL! Also, sat in the spinning teapot which I've been avoiding since long ago due to the dizzy-ness it causes. Did crazy stuff like singing birthday songs for Amanda & Cecilia on a roller coaster ride with some unknown guys.

Weeee, I never know Sunway can be so fun, HEHEHE!
But then, I was really exhausted. Tired tired tired, a lil bit of headache as well since we kept getting wet and dried then wet again.

*Pictures later, I couldn't find my card reader. ha ha ha T__T*

Then left at around 5pm for my sister's birthday dinner. You see, another birthday celebration. As usual, seafood dinner in some restaurant and a huge cake. I thought I'll enjoy the cake but too bad it tasted sooo sweet. >_< One piece is enough to bloat me already. Eeee..

Having light headache now, aww aww. I feel like I'm floating, ohhh gosh! Side effect of being a crazio, haha!