B L A N K

The entry space was left empty for soooo long before I typed these words.

Honestly, I have nothing to blog about, but then I feel guilty to leave my blog untouched, that's why I am here crapping, babbling, and whatever-ing.


Random:

ωuugui. / и2o says:
lol
hii C=
how u been
doing?

γєєп ° says:
fine and not fine
hahah

ωuugui. / и2o says:
lool
yeah -.-''
always de lah u

See, that's how my life is. Boring, boring and boring. The same thing again and again that people could already know how's my life going before I say a word.

Latest event?

My sister finally had her official graduation ceremony. I didn't want to go at first, mind you I hate all these long, dragging ceremony a lot. But well, its my sis! Fine then, I'll endure. And as what I've expected, I did not enjoy at all, especially when my sister's course was somewhere at the end there. Whatever la, its over. Took some pictures and poof, that's it. So meaningful yet so meaningless.

Went lepak in Midvalley after that, because I simply didn't want to go home.
I've been going out very often with friends or by myself lately. Haa, maybe going out alone sounds funny to you, but for me, its somehow better than staying home. I don't understand why but I really hate staying home these days. Especially when he's around.

I shouldn't, I know.

I feel sorry too, I'm not cold- blooded.
Or am I? I shall figure that out later.


I find myself rebellious.
Very.
Is that enough to conclude everything?

The Guilt.

Sigh, I did it again.

I tried to resist and I tried to change, but I failed again and again.
Say bye to my effort all this while. I'll regret, yes I know.
The feeling sucks.

Nevermind, I promise this will be the last time, okay?
Be tough, keep your words.
You can do it. Trust me!

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Back to school life.

I've just discovered something. Maybe 'discover' isn't the suitable word as I was told about it, but whatever lah. That's not the point.

Lady, if you are not satisfied with anything I do, come to me and tell me straight. You don't have to complain to other people who have not even seen the way I worked. Do you think it is proper to spoil my image in someone's eyes before I start working with her? You might have already set a bad impression of me in that someone's eyes though I have not even given the real first impression of myself! That's freaking unfair okay?



Procrastination is growing in me. Homeworks are pilling up but I don't even bother to touch them. Told ya I'm not in the mood for it, forcing will never work for me. Maybe I'll somehow end up like the poor writer, but who cares. Enjoy now, regret later! Haa~


I'll be out for the whole day tomorrow. (And I am so glad about it)
Its time to splash the water~
Desa Water Park, here I come!!! ;D

Sucks.

I wish I am a submarine that I can sink into the ground where nobody would notice me, or a fallen leaf, free to come, free to go and nobody gives a damn.

This random idea somehow found a way to sneak into my mind today. I am not emo, mood swing is a better term to describe it I guess.

A serious one.

I do look and sound normal in school, but nobody knows what's running in my head. I've been very impatient these days (its pretty obvious I think) , I get irritated and annoyed easily, I couldn't bear with noise, I'm always frustrated even with tiny matters, I frowned a lot, I cursed when I saw bitches bitching, I walked like a zombie, I've lost my interest in almost everything, I don't feel like doing anything but to stay far away from the crowd and bind myself into the wall.

In short, I feel like isolating myself from the world.


I wonder what made me so miserable.

Is it the busy schedule I'm having now? I know I have no right to complain compared to people who fill up their days with tons of tuition classes, but being busy is not my thing. I hated staying back since I was in form 1, and now I have to stay back everyday. So what if I'll be bored at home? I don't care, I just want to go home. School makes me feel empty, though being home doesn't really make a big difference either, I just want be home.

At least I have a room at home and I get to be alone if I want.

Procrastination is another thing, and I believe it is somehow related to the moodswing. My homework is piling up like a mountain but I simply ignored them. Sorry but no, I am not in the mood for it, not in the mood for anything actually. I rather waste time sitting on the chair, staring at the dumb monitor and do nothing than to open my bag and dig out the bores-me-out homework.

Can someone name me something interesting?
I'll appreciate it.

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Every incident has its effect. We can't pretend like everything's alright because it DID happen, the scar does exist, and it takes forever to heal. I'm sorry for the way it is but forgive me, I couldn't change a thing. I tried to fix it, I really tried, but it didn't seem to work. In fact, it just got worse.

I'm sorry, but its gonna be this way.

Sports Day BYE BYE!

Finally an update after so long!

Like all the St Marian's know, our sports day had officially ended. Pring house got 1st runner up! (I guess everyone who reads my blog knows anyway, lol.) To be honest, I didn't give a damn to the placing every year but I screamed like a mad monkey (monkeys do scream, right?) when Pn. Prema announced Pring house won the discipline cup, cheer leader cup and tent decoration this year! It was SURPRISING, and urhm, guess you can imagine the screams and cheers when Pring house was declared as the overall 1st runner up?

I'm happy not just because we got second, but most importantly we bet them! LOLX. Sorry but it really annoyed me, A L O T !

As for my non- athelete members, they all got something. Champion for one of the form and 1st runner up for the rest. Pretty good huh? Now, stop comparing it to last year's. Its good enough okay! So, the champions had ice cream and the runner ups had chocolates! Happy? You all sure happy lah, pity my purse!

After sports day, Cecilia and I went for T- shirt hunting for one whole day! Yes, ONE WHOLE DAY. Guess what? We went to 4 jusco outlets in one day just to hunt for some stupid blank Baby T's. Crap, I don't understand why would a blank, simple T shirt like this is running out of stock in almost every outlet?

Fortunately, after 2 days of hunting (Yes, I went hunting again, today.) I finally got all the T shirts for everyone. (Once again, thanks Ping!!) Hopefully we'll get the completed T shirt before school holiday starts and yayyy, here comes the class outing ^^


I'll be officially 'INSTALLED' (lol, I sound like a software? -.-) as the class monitor tomorrow. No, I'm not looking forward. I rather stay 'uninstalled' because I hate wearing a tie! ;(

But well, since its impossible for me to escape, let me just hope the ceremony will be dragged longer. Who doesn't love skipping classes? Heee, especially the booooooring sejarah class -_- What? Its all about the subject lah, not teacher ok!

I know my posts are boring without pictures, that's one of the reason I hardly blog too. I know its boring, but what to do... Cameras and handphones are BANNED in school =(

Maybe if you try talking to the ah-tau's in our school, my posts will change.
Yea right, dream on la~

Baaa~

Human are weird. When they are free and have all day long free to do something, they will never do it. But when they are suppose to be busy, they will head to something that is not neccessary and spend one whole day for it.

Just like me! When I was free and bored like nobody's business, I don't blog. But now, this moment, when I should be dunking my head into chemistry or biology books, I am here BLOGGING! Sigh, what to do. Human's nature =P

So yes, I'm having test this week. This has to be the shortst test I've ever had because its only 3 days! Well, 4 days maybe. But chinese paper don't really count xD

For the very first time, I totally ignored my books yesterday. Oh ya, I went for undang test and relieved to say, I passeddd~! Yayyy! Ok, I actually planned to study after it but well.. I COULD NOT! So, I ended up somewhere else but not home and not studying, hahaha!

I had a nice day yesterday but definitely not today when the papers arrived on my desk and my brain gone blank. Uh ow, what are all these crap about? Bla bla bla, and there goes a miserable day with dumb, unanswered question, lol.

Maybe I should be worried, and yes I AM worried. Someone, anyone, please tell me Its only intervensi lahh, work hard for your trial and SPM then ok already! before I'm drown into depression? lol. But I doubt if I will xD~

Happenings.

Let me be honest here.

I'm getting lazy to blog around already, so don't be surprised if I only update my blog once in a blue moon. Haa.

Happenings lately:

1. I finally started my way to my driving license!

2. Sports practise sucks and I don't care already.

3. Volleyball isn't as fun anymore.

4. The very first test in form 5 is soon to arrive. RIP soon!

5. 'Things' getting out of control!

6. I'm regretting for what I've promised.

7. A war will start real sooon, be prepared =)

8. Some people need to change.

9. I am lazy.

10. I hate you and you more everyday.


As for the most important one, I shall point to the 7th and 8th ones. Finally it reached its limit and, boooom. There goes the first bomb.

Its you, not us.

Its either you change or bye bye. We had enough. If you expect people to do something for you, please ask yourself whether you had, or you could do the same first. Maybe in your eyes you only see what you've done and your so called sacrifices, but what about us? And all those we've done for you? Did you notice them? I bet you didn't, and I guess you don't even call them 'something we've done' because you think they SHOULD be that way. Yeah?
Care about how you feel, yes. We always did, and because of that we had always ignored our own wants just to suit yours and CARE for you. Did you appreciate it? Once again, I don't think you even noticed.

And who cared for us? Nobody.

Its time for a change.
None of us wants a fight here, so make it peace.

Booo.

Hello, I am back from my hometown.

Yay?


Nahhh... Now that I realise days in Selayang are just as boring as days in my hometown. I always refused to go back to hometown last time, claiming its boring despite the long car journey which I always try to avoid. But now, I'm alright with going there because it actually makes no difference!

Talking bout CNY this year..

I finally understand why people always say CNY = time to gain weight. Not because you want to, but you are forced to! I had 3 horrible days which I had to have big dinners, as in those you always see during CNY, colourful, fancy dishes. And yes, they are all HUGE, and most likely the same!!! First day was with my dad's brother and grandpa, second was with my mum's side and third, my dad's sis and grandpa.

Plus all the tid bits, finger food and snacks?

Baaaaa...

Yesterday, my sisters and I went surveying around because they wanted to get new handphones for themselves and my mum too! Rich people kan? -_- I was planning to go Genting with my mum at first, but the bus schedule simply shreded my mood to Genting off, and I decided to follow my sister at last.

At the end of the day, my second sis got a new G705, my younger sis got a pink w580i, and we got a 2630 for mum! (Don't say we pick lousy one for her, she wanted a simple-without-all-the-uselsss-crap-for-her handphone!) RM1890 chiang~ GONE! That phone dealer must be happy gilerrrrr.

Me? I got nothing! But I'm still bankrupt. Why? Because both my sis loaned money from me. =.= My ang pau moneyyyy! On the way back, we were trapped in a massive jam, which is pretty common in KL, for an hour. !@#$%


Happy Chinese New Year everyone!
Not belated lahhh, today's only the 6th day.

And belated Happy Birthday to Brandon and Wei Han.
Sorryyyy couldn't join you guys at Sunway.


I think that's pretty much all I want to say. Heading over to Ping's house tonight, weee~

Sisters and cousin's puppy.
<3

Belated birthday post?

I know I'm already late for a few days, but who cares?

Happy 17th myself!! :D

Thousandsssss of thanks to the LYLAS Amanda, Cecilia, Esther, Andrianna, and also the always-the-one-and-only-guy Sze En for your attempt to give me a 'surprise party' which erhh.. FAILED? HAHHAHA. Blehhhh, now you know I'm pretty good in acting huh? xD

Click here for photos!

So they first came to my house, then we went Pizza Hut, lastly Selayang Mall. Then the real big surprise came, lol. Ping came all the way to Selayang Mall to give me my birthday present, hohoho. Thanksss lao po for the cookies, the card and the dont-know-for-what-maybe-massage thingy, hahah. I'm surprised, yes I am xD

This year's birthday is special for me. Thanks LYLAS and KSE, though the surprise didn't really turn out to be a surprise, I appreciate it ALOT. I mean it okay, love you people~ <333
And Ping too, for the half day you spent for my present, hehehe.

Not forgetting all those who called or sms-ed or face-to-face wished me happy birthday. Thank you! :D

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Finally, CNY holiday is here. YEAYYYYY!! I had been abandoning my blog because I had no time to blog laaaaa!! I had been really really busy and exhausted, thank god the holiday is here to save me.

Happy travelling to Amanda, don't forget my souvenir yeah, hiak hiak hiak xD~


Will be back to hometown for days, byeee!!

Volleyball! <3

Another tired gilerrrrr day!

Finally I got to attend the volleyball training today after missing out so many practises the rest had. And because of that, I skipped the extra History class by Mrs Ganesar. Good thing or bad thing? Not bothered, hahah. As long as I enjoyed the sport :D

But yes, nothing is perfect. There are certain people who really made me lost a little of my 'syokness' during the practise. Not gonna spend time to write long about them though, they simply don't worth my time. All I can comment is, you hardly see fair-and-square treatments. Figure yourself yeah?

You see, I had a hectic day. So hmm, I'm not gonna stay up to 12am today for that moment. Nahhh, I'm too tired for that, especially when my head is cracking *krackkkkkkk!* as a result of staying too long under the hot sun. And pathetic to say, this year I'm not really keen on celebrating it. Well, reason? Busy, busy, busy and busy.

Too much to do, too little time!!
I wonder how people with crazy tuition classes survive everyday? -_-

Baaaaaa, CNY holiday come faster lahhhh! I need you T_T

My rounding duty is back, aww noooooo! D:

A Break!!

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY SATURDAY!

I finally get to rest after living through 6 days restlessly. Those six days were terribly bad and I've never felt so exhausted before, NEVER! Well, I think they are already carved in my memory forever.

If you wonder what made me suffered so much, the main reason would be this:

They are all borned in 6 days time where I would only be back from school at 4pm for most of the days, so I had to start creating them once I got back from school and hell, its blooody exhausting, no joke. Normally the baking lasted until around 9pm or later while at the same time, I had to rush up my homework too! Can you imagine how tiring it was, especially when I still had to get going with my homework after the baking are done?

That's a disaster, a big torture! But somehow, I've got all the orders done! Yippee, thanks A LOT to my mum for helping me so much in the bakings! Without those help, most probably I'll still be drowning in the pool of cookie dough and screaming for help. THANK YOU!

So, yesterday was the official closing day of my bakings for CNY cookies order. Wee, I felt so relieved when I covered the very last box of my cookies, as if a big burden has been released and I'm all free! I wonder how many cookies I've made in these 6 days? And phew, fortunately I'm still not sick of cookies yet xD!

Went to school today as a replacement day for CNY break. Guess what? It turned out so badly.

Because of that bitch.
(I know I'm being rude, just allow me for once.)

Hey bitch, someone whom you obey to so much said we must always look at the good sides of everything instead of trying to pick bones out of an egg, but it seems what you are doing all this while is totally opposite of what she said! Do you find it fun to observe and catch only the mistakes done by everyone? Are you a mental psycho that you couldn't bear to see us live in peace? Is spoiling people's day your favourite daily-must-do?

If you are going to say no, think again. Because all you've done show that you are just like that! You will never know how miserable we had been because of you. Yes, YOU! YOU who think you are oh-so-great-and-perfect person, YOU who have nothing else to do but to look for others' offences, YOU who find joy in spoiling people's mood.

Do you know how annoying you are? And how much you are hated by the people? The points we worked so hard for are NOT for you to simply cut off like that! Well if you are to demerit so much, then you SHOULD do equally the same for merit! Its unfair for you to swallow off all our hard- earned points and hardly give us a chance to gain it back!!

Honestly, I tried not to hate you like how people do, but now I find this effort to be pointless. Why not just hate you? You are simply so hateful!

I'm officially hating you now, bitch!

Exhaustion!!!

Again, it has been quite long since I last updated my blog. Well, you don't have to ask me how are you (if you ever bother), just imagine me as the yellow thingy in the picture above. Yes, that's me.

I am seriously hoping for 48 hours in a day now. Homework, volleyball, house practise, duties, programs, CNY cookies yada yada.... THEY ARE ALL TRYING TO KILL ME. I am staying back everyday for the whole week until around 4pm except for today, wtf?! And even though I came home early today I had no time to rest at all! (Of course now isn't counted, lool.) I busied for the whole day but my homework is still not done. Worst of all, there're not only a little left. Its A L O T ! ! !

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For the first time in my life I actually forgot about the day.

How amazing I am? -_-


I desperately need a break!

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

Exhausted!

Hello everyone?

Hmm, I know I left my blog alone for quite long again. Gee, sorrrrry la. School life's really busy and I always come home dead tired. Yeah no joke, and homeworks are already piling up though its only the first week of school.

Crap crap, I'm so tired.

There are sooooo much to do in school, for the class especially. And thank god my rounding duty ended today! Yayyyy! I'm happy that I actually survived through the first week of school without any mental or physical damage, hahaha.

Chinese New Year is coming soon, SOON. Too bad there isn't any CNY feel at all! Even my house is not decorated with all the red red stuff (but my classroom is, lool.) Anyway, there isn't anything special to look forward to during CNY either.. The only thing I'm concerned about is the ang pau's, LOL. Don't criticize, I'm telling the truth okay? xD

I decided to not have a party because first of all, I hate planning. Second, I'm so lazy and I find parties are pretty troublesome, LOL. Third, I'm not really excited over it. Don't ask me why, haa. Maybe its simply because of the hectic school life that made me lost the eagerness to celebrate it?

Owhhh, I wish it will just be a smooth year for me. That's it =)

2009 New Year Eve II

Second picture post =D

Continue laughing~~~ XD


















Special thanks to John and Nicole for lending their place to us for the celebration and the 'drinks' too. HAHAHA, we wouldn't have enjoyed without you both. A BIG SPECIAL THANKS FROM ALL OF US!

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Welcome 2009!

Say bye to 2008 and welcome 2009! I had a great time welcoming the year, hehehe. Pictures are up, so let them tell the story! =D

Now, LAUGH YOUR ASS OFF PEOPLE!! HAHAHAHA.

ROARR. Leave me alone!

Yes, please leave me alone you evil stomach ache. Urhhh, I had been suffering stomach ache for twice in 3 days time. What the heck? And its not the normal pain, its bloooody EXTREME. I'm currently lying deadly on the chair and typing with one hand, yes no joke. Salute me?

Damnn, I hope I won't puke again this time. I puked 2 days ago and gross it was disgusting. =(

Worst of all, I'm having a cold flu now while tomorrow is the big day for countdown. !@#@%$#%&^ WHY?! I don't want to countdown with a runny nose!

For the past two years, I spend my last minute of the year and the first minute of the next year at Bukit Bintang. So this year, I'm finally switching to The Curve =) The plan was forever changing and finally, we settled with almost all the LYLAS coming. I hope things will turn out right tomorrow.

2008 is ending soon.

Lol, that's freaking fast can? I remember I was trying to suit myself into form4 life and subjects and now, crap I'm entering form 5. Don't ask me how was this year and the sweet 16 stuff. To me, every year feels the same. Lol, maybe my life is just boring or something.

. . . .

Okay, mood spoilt. Why are things changing so frequently?

Dang. No mood left to blog, bye.

Stop the naggings.

I know what am I doing.

So just leave me alone and let me be, okay?

Life goes wrong.

I wonder what happened to me these days.

I had been doing strange things that I've never done before. I adopted a new, but terrible lifestyle. I'm ruinning myself and all the effort that had been put in since years ago.

I feel depressed and miserable for behaving in such a way, but I couldn't change a thing. I failed again and again to persuade myself to get back to the track.

Dang. What the hell is wrong?

When the phone gets noisy.

After 20 long unanswered calls..

Damn, this is really getting irritating.

"Hey, stop calling please would you? Sorry but its annoying."
"But I thought you did not reload, sorry for disturbing. That day I didn't get your reply so just call you la blablabla..."

What the heck. What is out-of-credit gotta do with not answering calls?

"Nah, I just didn't want to waste my time or credit. Sorry bout that, just take me as anti social or whatever. Bye."

And whatever craps that followed were ignored...

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This is what happens when someone tests my patience with bloody hell loads of calls at all time. 12am, 10am, 12pm, 10pm... Dang it, why don't people understand when their calls are unanswered all the time? Isn't it obvious enough?

Say I'm harsh or comment whatever you wish to, but this is just me. I'm always patient, but very impatient in certain special cases, such as this. Get on my nerve, you'll get it. Back off!

I had been surviving with balloons, balloons and balloons for the last weekends. Ahah, it was pretty boring at first but after getting used to it, it turned out to be fine. But too bad I didn't get to celebrate my sis' 14th birthday due to this.



Still, I did something! I made a birthday cake for her the day before I left the house. It took me almost one whole day but I think its definitely worth it. She and her friends and my family plus my relatives all loved the cake (Well, except the Oreo cookies that got soften up after being exposed too long, lol.)

My sister and her friends
(Plus my sayang sayang dog! xD)

Happy Belated Birthday =)

I wonder if my smile changed or what? =.=

Mourning for the innocent lives.

It had been raining since early in the morning.

Perhaps the sky is crying for the innocent creatures that are being killed or to be killed today. Well, what festival is today? Sigh, I know I shouldn't say this, but I really feel sorry for the lives. Should I make it clear first, that I am NOT criticizing or trying to make an issue here. Its just, sympathy.

Yesterday when I was on the way to Mid Valley, there were these two cows, chewing grass peacefully beside the road. I wonder if they know what's waiting for them in 24 hours time? Do they realise their destiny? I rather they don't. Because if they do, that will be the biggest torture in the world, knowing their fate but couldn't help nor do anything to save themselves.

Sometimes I wish I could help them, you know, some crazy ideas like setting them free from the rope when nobody's around or something, LOL. Ahaha, just some imaginations lah okay, not that I'm gonna do it. xD Its impossible~

So, what brought me to Mid Valley was this...

The Picabot!

Remember I once blogged about the auto floor cleaning robot I was promoting during HomeDec 2008 in KLCC?

Because mum decided to get one for my uncle's family for moving into their new home, and so we went there to visit its booth in Mid Valley Exhibition Centre. Surprisingly, the uncle there (my ex boss, maybe? HA.) told me that he actually read my blog! What?! AHAH, nevermind, since I'm doing no harm but helping him to promote. xD

Mid Valley was, beyond-words CROWDED. Oh my, people there were shopping in a way as if all the stuff don't cost money at all. Every shop with a poster "SALES" in it, you will see a long queue in front of the fitting rooms, or a huge crowd of people hunting for shoes.

I was sort of, trying to get myself a new pair of shoes too. After walking around the shops, my sister and I had got a few bags on hand. But DANG, those were all HERS. Argh, maybe I'm simply too choosy or something. She ended up with 4 bags while me? Nothing. Booo =_=


Christmas is around the corner. That's the Christmas decoration in Mid Valley for this year. Pretty, but not as pretty as the others I would say. Room for improvement? Maybe =x

But I did enjoy the Christmas atmosphere. I like it, though I'm not one who celebrates Christmas.

Hee =D

Holiday's a torture?

Now everyone, prepare yourself for the long, boring post following up!

Hmm, yes, maybe. No, not maybe. Its a definitely. Err, I'm referring to the title-lah! =.=

I had never thought this way before, but my bored-to-death lifestyle recently really changed what holidays mean for me. It used to be one of the most enjoyable period for me. Well, free of school, stupid-daily-six-twenty-alarm, uniform, responsibilities, assemblies, lectures, homework blablabla. Who wouldn't enjoy life like this?

But now, let me think again. Maybe that statement is only applicable to those whom their life is forever full of activities. What else is in my life other than those things that I'm so used to during the non-holiday times? Nothing, I would say. You don't have to tell me how pathetic I am for having such a dull life as a teenager, I know more than you do. But what can I do?

So, I'm kind of... glad? To have the time passing so fast. Its already December, you see. No no, don't call me a psycho. Put yourself in my place and you will understand VERY well, you will see how hard I have to struggle in order to get through the over-the-limit bore.

Hah, sounds too serious? Well, I'm forcing myself not to get out of my bed earlier than 11am everyday even though I'm already awake since 9am. What a joke? How foolish can I be? But its true. Because I'll be filled with nothing but empty feeling, and annoyance sometimes, once I get up and think, "Crap, what the hell am I going to do today?" Especially when it is only 9am in the morning. So I chose to glue myself to the bed for another 2 hours, just to kill time.

Sighhhhhhhhhh.

Ok ok, I know I shouldn't complaint so much about holidays because I will definitely be very desperate for holidays when school's back. And, its form 5! RAWRRRR. Bless me, hah!

Twilight is indeed, a really interesting story. I couldn't help myself from being overly absorbed into the series that I'm actually reading it almost 24/ 7. HOHOHO, thanks to the movie I guess. And I have to agree with everyone who commented that the books edition is much more better than the movie's. More detailed perhaps.

I'm starting the forth book now, woo hooo!!

Ciao, sorry if the long post bored you out, HEHEHE. You always have an option to ignore, you know.
XD